Thursday, January 14, 2021



Extremity of the times we are going in will cause many, even the unbelievers to dust of their Bibles.  Something about the atmosphere has the essence of the apocalypse to it.  The control, but also the weather, financial, political and religious climate is at a heightened state.  The house of cards has been built and all it takes is a gush of wind and the whole house will come down.  Who then will come and rebuild and what will they rebuild?

It is at this time that they will cry “My God, why hast Thou forsaken me?”  To this He will reply, “Depart from Me, I know thee not!” (Matthew 7).

Have we placed ourselves in their shoes?  Have we given ourselves sufficient time to consider the dynamics of such spiritual devastation?  What it would mean to those who thought they were right with Him, Jew and Gentile, only to find that their present devastation means that He has indeed forsaken them.  A destitution of all security.  Naked and as ones who are already dead!  The dead bones of Ezekiel 37 comes to mind.  Have we considered the devastation?  Physically, emotionally and especially spiritually?  How many will commit suicide because dying would be the only way out?  There will be no confusion as to whose wrath is upon them.  They will know that God has put them away in anger.  But know this, there will be those who will curse God and those who will cry out to Him in that time.

Where will those be who will say to them, “Fear not, do not be afraid. The Lord your God with His mighty arm, He will come and save you” Isaiah 35:4.  In Psalm 102, we read:

In Psalm 102, especially read in the context of the haulocast, we read the following in verse 14,

14 For thy servants take pleasure in her stones, and favor the dust thereof.

This pleasure and favor speak of setting your affection on and to show mercy and pity.  Who are these servants?  Those whom He has prepared for such a time as this.  This is something they are as servants and not something they merely do out of obligation…they ARE a compassion for stones and a pity for dust.  We know that the apostolic dispensation that will come during the start of the tribulation will be from those stones that have been built in Him.  Their capstone, Jesus Christ, the stone the builders rejected.  And He will through His living stones lay the foundations that has been broken down and brought to dust.  They will be the builders of the foundation.  For is the heavenly Jerusalem then not a city and a wife?  Does the Word not say that the church is built on the foundation of the Apostles and Prophets?  These will be living stones.  Stones that will be laid down to build a foundation that cannot be shaken.  They will have compassion on the stones and pity on the dust laid in ruins.

We are told that not one stone will be on top of each other…just rubble and devastation.  The true Master Builder will come and He will again lay her foundation.  The Son of Man that will once again cry out…"Jerusalem, oh Jerusalem, if only you knew the day of your visitation!”  He is indeed preparing a city to dwell in.  And her foundations will be built up again by those living stones built up in Him. For He is ultimately the foundation of this city of God.   In Isaiah 6 we read that the land is made desolate and the people is cast far and away.  He promise that He will bring them back from the various places from where He has scattered them.  This is the heart of God that afflicts pain.  The One who wounds so that He may heal.  For those who receive these wounds of chastening and wrath will call on Him, but those who refuse it, will curse Him!

The stones built up in Him, that are vitally connected to the true Capstone, the Stone the master rejected, will go where they are sent to these various  places that He has scattered His people.  Both Jew and Gentile.  Not only because of a mission, but mostly because they are united to the broken heart of God.  For God takes no pleasure in the destruction of man. This is the reason for the sending of His servants…the broken heart of God.  For even as the cities lay in ruins, His heart has been broken even before the foundation of the worlds.  He saw the end from the beginning.  The living stones will have compassion on the ruins of Jerusalem. 

Let me ask you.  What is the purpose of the Church?  Surely we cannot think that our purpose is just to go to heaven?  No, our God came for the Jew first, and now desires to use us to bring her to jealousy, so that she may look on our unveiled faces and behold His glory.  Just as Moses were veiled and is a type and shadow of Judah, who is veiled, so now, the word says that we behold Him as unveiled.  He is greater than Moses and He is the builder of the House of God.  Through our unveiled faces He wishes to provoke them to jealousy so that they may return and cry out to their Messiach!  Up until now they are not the least jealous or threatened by us, but rather a pure hatred has been coming from the various sects of Jews.  But there will be a remnant of them that will be dispersed into the wilderness.  There He will send His Beloved to feed her. But even so, when the tribulation starts, are we to ignore them?  Are we only to plead with the Left Behind church?  Surely not, for this is our ultimate calling in Christ Jesus, as their Messiah.  That we may go as a corporate Body, the Body of Christ and once again with Him cry out…Oh Jerusalem, oh Jerusalem!” 

The reality is that we are not building our own kingdom, but the Kingdom of God.  His Kingdom constitutes both Jew and Gentile, for the two shall become one.  And yet, they themselves who will also be persecuted, will persecute us as the Goyam, which they hate to the core.  Unless our hearts are broken for the lost, even the angry lost, how then will we be able to be a light unto the nations?  Mental agreement and tolerance to this reality will cause us to fall short.  But a heart that beats with His heart that beats with the compassion of God, will cause us to shine with His glory on our faces.  To have compassion on her broken walls and dust.  For as the Bridegroom so the Bride.  As the Head, so the Body.  A nature compatible with His nature.  Not that we will all run to Jerusalem, but that He uses His servants to bring her in from wherever she has been scattered all over this world.  He has placed each of us where we are for both the Jew and Gentile.  Am I a “Jew lover” who have some sentimental religious affiliation with them?  No.  For longer than 12 years He has spoken to me about His heart for her.  And it is broken. 

Both those who will gladly receive us and those who persecute us are those whom He will send us to..  God sent His Son to gather unto Him a people in these last days from out of His Body that He through them may build up the House of God, a city in which to dwell in.   The New Jerusalem, both an actual city that will be rebuilt in Jerusalem and a heavenly one, the Bride of God.

How will we be for them what He intended unless our hearts are broken for both Jew and Gentile?  Unless we see as He sees, we will not attain to what is required to lay our lives down.  One do not hear about this preached from the pulpit or any teachings of the end time purpose of the Church concerning Israel.  And yet we are right at the very door of her destruction!  A clear mandate is to be owned that we are saved to provoke her to jealousy.  Left to ourselves we will shake off the dust from our feet and move on.  Let those who love them so much to this job!  But God has not forgotten His people.  And He never will.  He is not interested in our David stars or Israeli flags and menorahs we take out during feast days.  He is not interested in our identification through the upholding of the feasts if we in fact in heart have no identification with the broken heart He has for His people.  Have you consider that He was born a Jew? 

Although He has not forsaken them, they have indeed forsaken Him.  He is the Husband scorned and forsaken by His first love.  Like Jacob who loved Rachel, but was given Leah, so He has had pity on us and made us His own.  But He has not forgotten Rachel as Jacob did not, and demanded that Laban give her to him.  Two wives, Jew and Gentile becoming one in Him.

His heart is broken.  The question I ask myself and you is why is my heart not broken?  Will we have this broken heart if we do not seek it?  Shall we have it we do not see the ultimate value and imperative that it is?  If we do not see the hardness of our hearts toward them, even though some refuses to acknowledge their matter of fact attitude towards them, how then are we walking with Him in fulfilling His purpose for why He came?  As if it is God’s problem how He will cause them to turn to Him.  He chose us!  We are His instruments.  If we do not go, who will? 

The reality is that our hearts are not broken for the lost, even for the Gentiles, neither for the Jew.  Secretly we feel that they will be getting that which they rightly deserve.  In our eyes judgment and wrath poured out on them during Jacob’s trouble is well deserved.  What hypocrites! Have we forgotten that if it was not for the grace of God where would we be? 

Our identification with the Jew is ultimately our identification with the broken heart of God.  Not only for the Gentile, but for the Jew.  We will find ourselves amidst destitution and we can either enter into their destitution or we can stand aloof and pride ourselves that we are not like them.  Will we be like Jonah and feel these people do not deserve the salvation of God?  Will we choose Tarshish rather than Nineveh?  Will our going be out of obligation or out of the identification with the Father’s broken heart?

The issue of Jerusalem is the issue of the Church, which is the issue of the nations, which is ultimately the issue of His Kingdom.  Will you be a Leah that hates on Rachel and pride yourself on your many children? Or will you mourn with her, because Rachel is crying and her children is no more?  Paul did not anguish for his people because he was Jewish.  He anguished for his people because he was an Apostle!  Christ was his life.  In Him he moved and lived and had his being.

Will you allow Him to break you in the deeps that passes mere sentimentality?  Facing the hardness of your heart and confess it before your God?  Your mourning will not be because you have no faith and are hopeless, but you mourn because He mourns.  He is still a man of sorrow and grief.  The danger lies in us thinking that all this does not apply to us.  This devotional will testify against both you and me when we stand before Him soon.  The motive is not to guilt you into this particular disposition, but rather that your eyes will be opened to the glory He intended - the church as He intended her to be.    

I can only cry, “Lord, let me not go on as if You have not spoken!  Let me not go on as if your heart is not broken.  Let me cleave to you like Jacob, until you touch my hip and I walk in your brokenness, identifying with your heart.  Break my heart O God!  What good is my correct doctrine when I do not embody the substance of it?  Rent my heart O God, rent my heart!  Move me from this place of indifference into identification.  Let me have compassion on her stones and pity on her dust!  Do what only you can do!”


Please Read:

Jeremiah 17: 15 - 27

15 Behold, they say unto me, Where is the word of the Lord? let it come now.

16 As for me, I have not hastened from being a pastor to follow thee: neither have I desired the woeful day; thou knowest: that which came out of my lips was right before thee.

17 Be not a terror unto me: thou art my hope in the day of evil.

18 Let them be confounded that persecute me, but let not me be confounded: let them be dismayed, but let not me be dismayed: bring upon them the day of evil, and destroy them with double destruction.

19 Thus said the Lord unto me; Go and stand in the gate of the children of the people, whereby the kings of Judah come in, and by the which they go out, and in all the gates of Jerusalem;

20 And say unto them, Hear ye the word of the Lord, ye kings of Judah, and all Judah, and all the inhabitants of Jerusalem, that enter in by these gates:

21 Thus saith the Lord; Take heed to yourselves, and bear no burden on the sabbath day, nor bring it in by the gates of Jerusalem;

22 Neither carry forth a burden out of your houses on the sabbath day, neither do ye any work, but hallow ye the sabbath day, as I commanded your fathers.

23 But they obeyed not, neither inclined their ear, but made their neck stiff, that they might not hear, nor receive instruction.

24 And it shall come to pass, if ye diligently hearken unto me, saith the Lord, to bring in no burden through the gates of this city on the sabbath day, but hallow the sabbath day, to do no work therein;

25 Then shall there enter into the gates of this city kings and princes sitting upon the throne of David, riding in chariots and on horses, they, and their princes, the men of Judah, and the inhabitants of Jerusalem: and this city shall remain for ever.

26 And they shall come from the cities of Judah, and from the places about Jerusalem, and from the land of Benjamin, and from the plain, and from the mountains, and from the south, bringing burnt offerings, and sacrifices, and meat offerings, and incense, and bringing sacrifices of praise, unto the house of the Lord.

27 But if ye will not hearken unto me to hallow the sabbath day, and not to bear a burden, even entering in at the gates of Jerusalem on the sabbath day; then will I kindle a fire in the gates thereof, and it shall devour the palaces of Jerusalem, and it shall not be quenched.

Wednesday, January 13, 2021





What was the agonizing of Gethsemané?  Was it a cosmic fight between evil and good?  Was it the place of ultimate intercession for the lost?  I suppose we can ascribe many different purposes from out of the Garden of Gethsemané.  I went into my prayer closet this morning with no specific agenda…just to sit with Him.  A cry came from my heart…from the deeps.  Deep calling unto deep.

This was my prayer:

“Oh my God, save me from unreality.  Save me from superfluity, save me from idle words spoken or written.  Save me from a religious spirit that boldly proclaims things, but I lack the power.  Save me from thinking I am strong.  Save me from thinking I can stand. Save me from myself.  Save me from thinking I am strong!  Save me from deception.  Save me!  Hear my prayer when I cry unto you with my voice, have mercy also upon me, answer my prayer! Save me Father, I am weak!” 

This was born out of the knowledge of the hour we are in.  I have not stopped agonizing in spirit since three hours ago, and still the tears are coming down my face as I agonize in spirit.  I was thinking of the time before us and that sometimes truth is too big for us to take in.  Too big and that we somehow are numbed into shock, and therefore in order to cope, we will succumb to agreeing and acknowledging to truth, but not reality.  Even though truth is reality, reality is something we have to “step” into for a lack of a better word.   I believe such was the case with our Savior when He stepped into the garden of Gethsemané that night…He was stepping into reality.  And reality strips you of all pretense and words of grandeur.  It causes you to look into a mirror where you no longer can deny what you see or what you are.  And I believe that in the Garden that was the reality that our Lord and Savior stepped into.  It was an agonizing of another kind where He was crying out to God, His Father, in utter weakness.  Baptized in weakness. 

This morning Father reminded me of Jacob who were agonizing (agonizing means contesting as well) with the Lord and said he would not let Him go unless He blesses Him and gives him a new name.  He too found himself on a rock, just as Jesus, the God of Jacob found himself on a rock in the garden, crying out to His Father that He would not leaven Him until…

Jacob was touched in his hip socket, that very place of strength and from that time on walked with a limp.  Wherever he went from there on, he was recognized by that limp.  By that particular walk in weakness that somehow God ordained as the transaction for His blessing.  As to say, when you enter and walk in weakness, I will bless you and give you a new name.  We are told that at the end of the age there will be those servants who will receive His Name upon their foreheads.  Once again, I cannot help but see the One who has gone before us.  Not in strength, but in weakness.  As a lamb led to the slaughter.  Not in strength, not in authority, not in courage or any of those things we ascribe to in being a follower of Christ.  We are willing to associate with this weakness, but to be baptized in it?  Well, that is a whole different story.  And yet, when we see Him in the garden, we see a man utterly destitute of all strength, baptized in weakness crying out to His Father to deliver Him.  He was not ignorant of what was awaiting Him.  He lived in Jerusalem and grew up as a tender plant before the Father, even in Jerusalem.  He saw the yearly crucifixions and every time He saw it, Isaiah 53 reverberated in the depths of His being.  The cross.  The full expression of God’s love for mankind as well as the full expression of God’s wrath on sin.  And He chose the weakness of a man, through the Son of Man, to be that expression.  He chose vessels of weakness to be the expression of His manifold wisdom and strength.  This weakness is often overshadowed by the words “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do!” and we see a strong Christ suffering for mankind.  But the reality is that His strength, just like Jacob, was born out of the weakness in which He was agonizing the night before.  There the transaction took place of an ultimate kind. 

We desire the baptizing of His Spirit and so we should.  But unless we are baptized in weakness, not just a sprinkling of water, but an immersion, how then can we expect that we will be given the Baptism of the Spirit in fire, that is to say in His love and power?  For the purpose of this baptism of fire, is no different that the purpose that is was for Christ…to give His life.  The truth is that He as a man would not have been able to give His life, unless He allowed the Spirit to draw Him in that garden and immerse Him… immerse Him into death.  Into reality. 

We are bold in our proclamations in saying that we will die for Christ, just like Peter did.  This too was the turning point for Peter…reality.  We are all Peters.  Will we die for our enemy as He did for us.  Will we willingly lay down our own lives, as He said in John 10?  He says that no one has greater love than he who lays down his life for his friends.  This all speaks of a voluntary act.  And the reality is that in the account of the Garden we do not hear of Jesus experiencing a particular baptism of the Spirit to lay His life down.  What we do hear is…Nevertheless.  That nevertheless is the bridge between His will and His Father’s will.  His will was clear…”I would rather this cup pass by Me”.  He wasn’t faking it…reality stared Him in the face and in the weakness of man, that is to say the flesh, He said, “Nevertheless”. 

The truth is that the very first blood was not extracted from out of the cruelty of the hands of man, but it was extruded from Him…given, not taken.  It was in the garden where He made that choice of “nevertheless” that He laid His life down and the cross was the full expression thereof.  When we think of giving our lives to Him our eyes are fixed on that moment when the blade will come down, or when we are beaten to death or whatever other means.  However, the place of death is in your own personal Gethsemané, and I believe it is a place He will draw you to, to be baptized in weakness.  The divine exchange is made now, not then.  Just as with Jesus.  This baptism was not His first moment of being confronted with the reality of the frailness of man, who is given to deception, given to live in unreality and given to pride.  These and so much more, as the Son of Man and as the Patterned Son, was His constant assault as the enemy was fully committed to cause Him to sin.  But Jesus said, “satan has nothing in me”.  Our idyllic view of Christ is strength, but we are not privy to those early morning communion He had with His Father as, during which He often went to be alone with Him.  We read in scripture that every day was a display of miracles and wonders as it followed Him everywhere.  But there was a transaction every day, until the last and final transaction in the garden He so often found Himself in.  The transaction He made with His Father in Gethsemané.

We are presently in the “night before”, or the crucifixion.  Will we be able to lay our lives down for others in strength or in weakness?  I am not writing this as someone who has attained to this, but I am at this time, this hour aware how the Church in great urgency wants to stand up for her rights.  I am aware of the posture of the One who knew His hour has come, and that He did not stand up, but went to the garden.  Where will you find yourself in this hour?  Will He find you there in the garden where He can baptize you in weakness, so that He may give you the strength to lay your life down?  There is no other way you will be able to do it, for mere resolve and bold words will fall to the ground the moment you are confronted with your weakness outside of the Garden.  You will have to lay your life down there before you go to the cross.  This is what He did.  The wisdom of God is foolishness to the wise.  But He was silent before His accusers.  He did not stand up for His rights.  Maybe some of His disciples thought at that moment, “Why does He not say anything?  Why is He keeping silent?  Surely He can just call on the Father to send His angels?  What a disappointment!  Maybe He isn’t whom He says He is, because He is so weak…so pathetic.”

I realize that there is a time for everything and we see Paul confronting those in Ephesus with their superstition and telling them who the unknown God is they are worshipping.  We see him confronting the girl proclaiming that they are the Servants of the Living God, and many more.  He is indeed a type and shadow of the Church to come that will operate in Apostolic Authority.  But we have to remember, that this is the same man that said the following:

2 Corinthians 8 - 12

For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

11 I am become a fool in glorying; ye have compelled me: for I ought to have been commended of you: for in nothing am I behind the very chiefest apostles, though I be nothing.

12 Truly the signs of an apostle were wrought among you in all patience, in signs, and wonders, and mighty deeds.

The message is clear in this particular scripture, however I want to bring your attention to the fact that three times he asked the Lord to allow this particular “ailment” to depart from him.  In the same way, our Savior prayed three times in the garden.  Three times He went to his disciples and said that they are to watch and pray.  Three times He agonized for three groups…the Bride, the Left Behind and Judah.  For the Bride it was for those who would stay behind, whom He knew would in the end lay their lives down, except John.  He took upon Him the agonizing of our weakness as well in those moments.

I have never experienced in all my walk with the Father what I have experienced this morning, and I am by no means under the impression that it is finished.  For just like Jacob, I will not let Him go until He blesses me.  Not in arrogance, but in utter weakness.  Reality has set in…I cannot.  And if He does not touch my hip, that place of strength which I am bound to utilize in standing up in His Name, how then can He bless me if I am actually still leaning on the flesh?  He has to touch me in that place of strength, so that I can then truly say, “With man it is impossible, but with God, all things are possible”.

Are you in the garden of your own personal Gethsemané in the night before?  The hour has come when the “sons of God” will be betrayed and delivered into the hands of sinful men, and be crucified…(Luke 24: 7)

May we be found in the Garden in the night before.

Please Read:

Hebrews 5:7-8

Who in the days of his flesh, when he had offered up prayers and supplications with strong crying and tears unto him that was able to save him from death, and was heard in that he feared;

Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered;

Hebrews 12: 2 - 4

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds.

Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin.

Tuesday, January 12, 2021



I was drawn to a video suggestion I saw on YouTube about a beautiful brown wild stallion  and his mare.  Usually something like this would not particularly grab my interest, but this time it did. This wild horse (Phoenix) jumped the fence after being captured in order to go search for his companion.  As far as I know wild horses are mates till they die.  Unfortunately he could not find her, but instead of taking the opportunity to be free, he came back to his family.  The woman who adopted him always felt that Phoenix was sad as she often saw him looking into the distance.  She knew he was longing for the mare.  One day, she saw a photo of this mare, and having her own photo could compare the two.  She was elated to find it to be a match and did whatever she could to adopt the mare as well.  She named the mare "Ghost", as she was to her like a ghost, nowhere to be found.  

Looking away from what the New Age and powers that be uphold with regard to the Phoenix, we can see why Father led me to this video. The meaning of this mythical bird, the Phoenix, is particularly applicable to the stallion that resembles our Bridegroom.   

phoenix symbolizes birth, death, and rebirth, as well as eternity, strength, and renewal. The whole idea that this mythical bird is reborn from the ashes of the flames of death signifies a journey through fire or adversity.

This morning whilst driving between the wheatfields on our way to a town nearby, my daughter, in a very "by the way" way drew my attention to a brown horse standing in the middle of a field.  It was then that we saw the white horse in front of him, lying in the field.  Instantly Father stirred in my spirit the message He wants to give.  And the message was holding hands with my emotional disposition that I have had since getting up this morning...very heartbroken.

I believe that Father was allowing me to feel some of His heartache for the Bride. I was saddened this morning as I was contemplating the flood of media, conspiracies and classified intel from everywhere.  This one says this and the other one says that, and just who are we to believe?  All seem so plausible and convincing.  And in the process, the net that the enemy has spun through the internet catches the attention, minds and hearts of His Bride.  This explains the flash vision of a black spider I saw the other day just as I woke up.  The internet has been spun and she is caught and I see it as clear as daylight.  I suppose in a way I feel like this woman who just wants to get the mare (Bride) to come back to him.  Because he misses her so much.  That is why my heart is broken because He longs for His Bride.  

Instead what is seen is an every increasing appetite for what the lastest news is and who gets the best credible intel and as it so happens to be, it never ends.  Where we are told to come to Him, we go to the net the spider has spun and we browse and browse.  Without knowing it, we are leaning upon the flesh to get our intel.  Does it not stand to reason that we are to go to the One who knows all things?  But yet, the first place we go is to the spider's web.  

Part of the reason for the heartbreak is that the Bride is so busy with the current events that she looses sight of the time we are in.  That is to say at the very doorstep of the Great Tribulation.  And why is this important?  Because the battle we are presently fighting is not a physical war, but a spiritual war.  Yet, in great uproar with all her credible intel she stands up and declares that she will not take this lying down.  She will stand up against the regulations.  She will do what it takes to overturn the deception and the control enforced on her, because she is free and will not allow anyone to capture her!  And yet, she is unable to see the net spun around her.  The hour is now that we are to come into that secret place where we are hidden.  Hidden not from this world, but hidden in Him.  To be in that place where she is able to lay all on the altar so that He may be her all in all.  Because those who are called to be workers in the time to come, although being baptised in the Spirit, will endure hardship with those left behind.  And if we are figthing for our rights now in the flesh, what will we do when they want to take our jobs, our homes, our loved ones?  Will we be able to still be strong for those around us when all is taken from them?  For they will be broken and torn in pieces crying out, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken us!"  What will you be crying?  Why is it that He raises prophets and apostles as He did then if not to prepare the Bride for the time to come?  When we read the epistles like Ephesians, Thessalonians and James we see the type and shadow so clearly of what is to come, but yet we are still so focused on the current state of affairs as if it is eternal.  The only thing eternal is the Kingdom of God and all that it contains.  

It seems the Lord is flooding me with so many messages.  They almost seem contradicting, but in the end, if you discern a bit more carefully...the message remains HOLINESS UNTO THE LORD.  Hearts circumcised from all that pertains to the flesh.  I am either a mad woman and are making all of this up, or God's heart is yearning for His Bride to see the late hour and that she would return unto Him with all her heart.  Please prayerfully consider the Word He gave me today.

WORD - received 12/01/21 

My Bride is not ready for the things to come.  Have I not said that My ways are not yours and that my thoughts higher than yours?  Yet she gets tired running with the footman, how then will she run with the horses?  For her eyes are not on Me, but on this world.  How can two walk together unless they are in agreement?  Do I then not require of her to ensure that her dress is spotless?  Yet she is walking this hour through the streets of this world, window shopping - lusting after the things displayed.  

Do you think that I take it lightly that you have wondering eyes?  Do you think that I esteem your leaning on the flesh as a light thing?  Have I not made it abundantly clear - HOLINESS UNTO THE LORD!

Write My daughter, write unto My Bride.  Tell her that I long for her to be spotless.  That she remains undefiled until I come.  For just as she longs for My return, I long to return unto her.  But will she be My virgin Bride or will she be defiled? Leaning on her Beloved, or leaning on the arms of the flesh?  Leaning on her own understanding, or leaning on the wisdom that is of above?

For as I look now upon her I see her mixed within the crowd.  Have I not said, COME OUT OF HER!  And yet, she lusts with her eyes, she lusts with the flesh and the pride of life is what she fights for.  

Decide now!  Whose Kingdom do you seek?  For I am coming and it is soon.  Will you be ready?  Will your eyes be single and on Me as My eyes are ever on you?

Please Read:

To the Church in Ephesus

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write:

These are the words of him who holds the seven stars in his right hand and walks among the seven golden lampstands. I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name, and have not grown weary.

Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first. Consider how far you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place. But you have this in your favor: You hate the practices of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.

Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who is victorious, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.

Monday, January 11, 2021



I posted this on another forum and when led to read it this morning, I felt compelled to post it again... The relevance being obvious. I felt the need to change the title as it fits the current atmosphere all round.

I am often first a message before I relay a message.  Father allows certain things in my life so that I may know His heart in that particular circumstance, but also to be able to know what His children are experiencing in the same.  The past few weeks I have been going through a very difficult time with my daughter.  Although wonderfully saved by our Father, she still has to fight fear daily on a level that few people understand.  I can only liken it to someone that is in constant warfare 24 hours a day.  But of late something new has reared its ugly head.  Words.  A flood of them.  She will speak to me about her concerns and when she does, it comes out of her mouth with such force.  No commas, no semi-colons, no periods.  In grammar we call that run-on sentences.  They run like a flood and they just don’t stop.  The only problem is that her flood of words come with such an overwhelming sense of fear because of the anxiety disorder she battels, that the very atmosphere becomes toxic.  I feel as if I am standing before a firing squad and thousands of arrows hit me at once.  No gap for me to intervene, no pause so that I may console.  Just an endless flood of anxiety.  It would have been bearable should this have been every now and then.  But no such chance with me.  This is a few times a day…at least five times that I have to stand before this flood of words.  Father has given me His peace.  And in this place of peace in my heart I am so secure.  But it is as if He has purposely removed the hedge around me so that in this still sea of peace in my heart, her words may come like a thousand stones at once and cause such disturbing ripples.  I have been feeling overwhelmed to say the least.  Please do not feel sorry for me.  Can you believe that He would let me go through this for you?  That my pain and suffering, just like His, has purpose for His Body?  Never doubt that pain has purpose.  You might not see it at this very moment, but our God, just like the enemy, does not waste pain.  He turns all things to good for those who love Him and are called by His Name.

Why am I telling you all this?  Well, He reminded me this morning of the woman that flees into the wilderness after giving birth to the man child.   In fear she is driven into the wilderness after complete chaos and the devil persecutes her.   He runs after her.  How?  The word says the following:

Revelation 12:15

15 And the serpent cast out of his mouth water as a flood after the woman, that he might cause her to be carried away of the flood.

The meaning of woman here is bride or wife in the Strong’s Concordance.  Father could have illustrated this by so many different ways.  He could have said that the serpent persecuted her with his mighty army or locusts.  Or he persecuted her with great wrath and breathed fire or something like that.  Who would choose opening his mouth and water and flood?  Well, our Father knows, being the Alpha and Omega.  In the Word, flood is often synonymous with a sea of people.  But the fact that it came out of the father of lies’ mouth, is showing us that the enemy persecutes the woman with a flood of words by man.  These words are words that will come from this world and how they have been deceived by the enemy to believe all his lies.  They will be used by him to persecute her in the wilderness.  Even so, now, presently His bride is being persecuted by a flood of words from this world, by the enemy.  His mouth is wide open and he is screaming as loud as he can.  And let’s face it, it is overwhelming.  Because he is screaming threats.  He is making his plans known and he is making it clear that he is coming after us. 

But I want to bring your attention today to Revelation 12:14.

 Revelation 12:14 

14 And to the woman were given two wings of a great eagle, that she might fly into the wilderness, into her place, where she is nourished for a time, and times, and half a time, from the face of the serpent.

The meaning of eagle in the Strong’s Concordance is breath and air.  She receives two wings that she may fly as an eagle into her place.  Not just any place, but a place prepared for her.  For one reason.  That she may be nourished.  That she may be taken care of and be renewed as we read in Isaiah 40.

Isaiah 40:31 

31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

It says that she may be nourished and cared for from the face of the serpent.  This face in the Strong’s Concordance means to gaze upon.  To look at.  That she may in this place, prepared for her in the wilderness (not away from the wilderness), be away from the face of the serpent.  That she may not look at him and be overwhelmed as he spews his bile of threats and fear.

I am quite aware that what I am saying may not necessarily be new revelation.  However, what is new is the vehemence and wave of words of persecution that is presently flooding this world.  This is going to increase. The enemy has one aim and that is to wear out the saints.  To bring them to exhaustion in their flight and to kill and destroy.  It says in Revelation 12 that the enemy sends this flood that she may be carried away by this flood.  This carried away means to be clothed with a burden.  But our God has prepared a place for you.  Not just any place.  Just like the woman fleeing into the wilderness flees to her place, Father has prepared your place.  Your place where He will raise you up by His Spirit away from the face of the serpent. This is our only save place.  Not more information, not more exposure, not more knowledge of how the enemy is working now.  Do not get me wrong, there is a season and a time for all things under the sun. However, in this very time, a cool-head goes a long way.  The aim in fear, and trust me, having a daughter suffer from anxiety disorder for 15 years, I know what fear can do firsthand on a daily basis, is to paralyze.  It escalates. It weakens, it becomes toxic to your thinking like a poison slowly filling your peaceful mind.  But God has given us not a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind.  We can confess this all day long, but the proof is in the pudding.  Is your mind sound?  Are you in that place of the eye of the storm?  Are your eyes on the face of the serpent or are you hidden where He can feed you and nourish you for the time to come.  I believe the reason why Father allowed me to go through the experience of fear in my life with my daughter, is because this world will soon be enveloped in a dark depressing blanket of fear.  The world will be clothed with a burden of fear that will be unbearable, just as the enemy planned.  The spirit of this age is the spirit of Jezebel that rules by fear.  There is purpose in my pain, and how I deal with it, whether I go to that place He has prepared for me, and be nourished now there by Him, will determine how I deal with it when I come out from that wilderness.  Will I be leaning on my Beloved? 

I have such urgency in my heart to draw ever closer to that place like Elijah to be fed by the ravens. 

1 Kings 17: 2 - 6

2 And the word of the Lord came unto him, saying,

3 Get thee hence, and turn thee eastward, and hide thyself by the brook Cherith, that is before Jordan.

4 And it shall be, that thou shalt drink of the brook; and I have commanded the ravens to feed thee there.

5 So he went and did according unto the word of the Lord: for he went and dwelt by the brook Cherith, that is before Jordan.

6 And the ravens brought him bread and flesh in the morning, and bread and flesh in the evening; and he drank of the brook.

There Elijah was fed by the ravens bread and flesh and he could drink of the brook.  This was a place prepared for Elijah where he would after a while receive his instructions from the Lord to go and tell Ahab of the coming drought.  Our Lord said that Elijah will come first.  We know this to be John the Baptist as well, the one who found himself living in the wilderness from honey and locusts.  He sends his Elijah company to the wilderness to be fed and nourished by Him so that they may receive strength and instruction for the time to come.  To come away from the face of the serpent and be fed by Him.  Jesus said that whosoever does not eat my flesh and drink My blood does not have life.  We must know that, in this place prepared for us, we are to feast on Him.   He has prepared a table today for you in the presence of your enemy.  We are to come into this place He has prepared for us by the renting of the veil, His flesh, and abide in the Holy of Holies.  In that still place.  The tent of the tabernacle made by Moses was right in the middle of a wilderness.  In your wilderness, your Father has prepared a place where you can be fed.  Where you can receive instruction. 

I believe Father’s dealings with me through my daughter is to say to you that the flood will increase.  Many people have seen tsunami dreams, but today for me it resembles the flood of words over this whole earth.  We have seen the destruction of tsunamis and how everything is carried away with it…just like Revelation 12 says the enemy desires to do.  It will become overwhelming, unless you run to that place where He will strengthen you.  This is not a suggestion. But a clear instruction from Him as He said to Elijah, and now say to us…

3 Get thee hence, and turn thee eastward, and hide thyself by the brook Cherith that is before Jordan.

One of the meanings of Cherith is to make covenant.  The essence of covenant is to become one.  Your enemies will be mine, and My enemies will be yours.  It is an exchanged life.  The Jordan is synonymous with death.  Saying, Come drink of the brook of My death so that you may have life.  From out of My side flows this river of water and blood, so that you may have life.  Drink so that you may be fed by My words.  Where I will speak to you, not as the enemy in a flood, but in a still small voice.

 1 Kings 19:11-13 

11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:

12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?

It is only in this place that you will hear His voice.  Where the enemy screams, our Father whispers.  But, it is in that hidden place, in the wilderness.  A place He has prepared for you.  Will you come? Even today?

In Revelation 12 we read that the earth opened up her mouth and swallowed up the flood.  This we know as to be a mighty earthquake.  And the flood will be those sent out to persecute his remnant bride.  But God, our Deliverer, will deliver us from this flood too.  Read the following scripture in light of what I wrote here. 

Psalm 46

1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

2 Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

3 Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.

4 There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.

5 God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.

6 The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.

7 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

8 Come, behold the works of the Lord, what desolations he hath made in the earth.

9 He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

This is our comfort and our hope.  This is our assurance and peace.  But all things worketh by faith.  This faith to hope and trust can only be found when you are fed by Him in the wilderness.  There to receive His strength away from the face of the serpent. 

Come and hide yourself for a little while and gaze upon His face, face to face.


 Song of Solomon 8:5a 

Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved?

 Hosea 2:14-23 

14 Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak comfortably unto her.

15 And I will give her her vineyards from thence, and the valley of Achor for a door of hope: and she shall sing there, as in the days of her youth, and as in the day when she came up out of the land of Egypt.

16 And it shall be at that day, saith the Lord, that thou shalt call me Ishi; and shalt call me no more Baali.

Sunday, January 10, 2021




I was woken up early this morning with the numbers 711.  I looked it up in the Strong's concordance and it means "best".  Not much there. I see even now as I start to write this devotional it is exactly 7:11am. I went to bed crying last night, thinking about what is presently transpiring in the USA.  I was thinking of my brothers and sisters and just all the uncertainties that they are surrounded with. Troubling times indeed and no one is exempt from the outcome and repercussion of the decisions that will be made from the powers that be.  

I decided to have a further look into the number 711 and saw that it comes from the word "boulé", which means counsel, deliberate wisdom and decree.  The description is as follows:

1012 boulḗ – properly, a resolved plan, used particularly of the immutable aspect of God's plan – purposefully arranging all physical circumstances, which guarantees every scene of life works to His eternal purpose.

This level of God's plan (1012 /boulḗ) demonstrates He is the Lord of history, i.e. always in charge!

[1012 (boulḗ) is more than God's immutable plan of physical circumstances. It always also includes the Lord's purpose in them – and hence arranging all the physical scenes of history before creation (Ps 139:16; Jn 1:3).]

From the above we can conclude that He is saying that nothing can ever happen to us without Him prior knowing that it will and that it has an eternal purpose. I know that in our programming through the years joy has been equated to happinness, but the two are vastly different.  Happiness is dependent on circumstances, and joy is not.  It is in our times of testing that we are told by James in the first chapter of his letter that we should count it all joy when we go through various trials and testings.  Such wisdom to this world is absolute absurdity!  I think we sometimes personalise the scriptures we read that we forget the context it was written in.  James wrote this letter in a time of great persecution.  The church  were running for their lives and were dependent on each other for provision by the grace of God.  They were in the extremity of the faith.  Faith ultimately tested, and yet James said, "Count it all joy".  

How does one obtain this joy that is not dependent or affected by your circumstances? The joy of the Lord is our strength.  In Hebrews 12 we read the following:

1.Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

In verse 2 we can see what was set before His  Joy was set before Him so that He may endure the cross.  Does this mean He was laughing on the cross?  No, but there was a looking beyond the cross. The joy of returning to His Father and the joy of being seated at His right hand, the joy of the inheritance, and the joy of fulfilling the purpose He came was sent to fulfill.  I am sure there were more.  He saw what He had to endure in the light of what was to come.  It is an escatalogical seeing.  It transcends our present circumstances in order to strengthen us to endure.  In Hebrews 11, the faith chapter as it is known, we have a list of those witnesses that have gone before us.  They not only experienced amazing miracles, but great persecution at that time.  In verse 34 and 35 we read about the very real friction and testing that lies between persecution and having the joy of the Lord.

34 Quenched the violence of fire, escaped the edge of the sword, out of weakness were made strong, waxed valiant in fight, turned to flight the armies of the aliens.

35 Women received their dead raised to life again: and others were tortured, not accepting deliverance; that they might obtain a better resurrection:  

This does not mean that they never experienced the anguish and sorrow of the persecution they endured, but our attention should be on how it possible for them to endure. It states that they might obtain a better resurrection.  There it is again...a future prospect.  A hope of resurrection, glory and reward unspeakable!  They were mostly running for their lives and had to be there for each other to encourage each other and to remind each other of their glorious future.  They had to think on these things and when they did, it ilicit a response of joy that transcended their dire circumstances.  We are soon to find ourselves in these very same situation and will our joy be full as Jesus says in John 15?  Where will we get this joy in the Lord?

This joy is a component of resurrection life and with resurrection their always has to be a death.  Jesus died a cruel death on the cross, but the Word says He was the Lamb of God slain before the foundation of the earth.  His death on the cross was the expression of His death before the foundation.  What I mean by that is that there was a very real death that He died when He came to be the Son of Man.  His Divine attributes such as being omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent had to be left above so that He as the Patterened Son could show us how to walk in full obedience and dependence on the Holy Spirit. Not only that, but we need to consider the relationship He had with Father before He became the Son of Man.  God's very own Son having to leave the uncomprehensible dinamic of their relationship, both the Father and the Spirit.  This is far above and beyond our comprehension.  Why?  Why would He do this for sinners such as us?  Yes, He loved us, but even then before He came...the joy was set before Him.  

There is a joy that transcends all circumstances and it is only found to the degree that you have left all.  For whatever you are still bound to will ultimately have a place in your heart.  Whatever you are bound to will cause pain when it is taken away.  Whatever you are still bound to whether it be your rights, your family, your friends, your appetite, your country, your husband or wife...these things when not placed on His altar, will cause you to be present minded and not eternally minded.  You will be a victim of your circumstances and when it will be time for you to go on from that which was taken from you, and it will be taken, how will you be able to go on and move beyond it?

I am reminded of a time when I was going through one of the most difficult seasons in my life.  I was right in the middle of such emotional pain and there was no end that pain. I remember driving somewhere and crying, but from out of my innermost being came such a song of praise to the One who giveth and taketh away.  I worshipped Him drenched in pain, but with a song in my heart that could only come from the joy of the Lord.  Yesterday a friend spoke to me about her brother whom she loved dearly who died on Sunday.  She was so heartbroken and I could hear the heaviness over her.  But she ended her message with a spontaneous prayer of thanksgiving and so much love for our Father.  I have to tell you that from my experience, the joy of the Lord is not only our strength, but one of thé most powerful forms of spiritual warfare.  It absolutely breaks chains and fetters to smithereens!  The enemy cannot compete with a joy that transcends all the pain and persecution he can enforce upon us.  They scatter in the midst of the praises of God's children!  In our utter weakness, His strength is made perfect in us and we can boldly and authentically then proclaim that "I am more than a conqueror (victor) through Him that strengthens me!"  

Our joy, not happinness, is directly in proportion to our complete surrender, just as happiness is in this world in proportion to how good your circumstances are.  In the time to come not only our testimony and the words we speak will be a light unto this world, but our joy...for there will indeed be sorrow and mourning.  I can only admonish you by the Spirit of God to make earnest with that which you still find yourself bound to.  The night is upon us where we will no longer be able to hide behind masks, even if we are forced to wear them on our faces...what will they see in your eyes?  They will have a overwhelming hunger and thirsts for the real thing.  We have a joy set before us and it would behoof us to meditate on regularly, for in the last days extremities, the joy of the Lord is our strength.

Please Read:

Acts 16: 19 - 36

19 And when her masters saw that the hope of their gains was gone, they caught Paul and Silas, and drew them into the marketplace unto the rulers,

20 And brought them to the magistrates, saying, These men, being Jews, do exceedingly trouble our city,

21 And teach customs, which are not lawful for us to receive, neither to observe, being Romans.

22 And the multitude rose up together against them: and the magistrates rent off their clothes, and commanded to beat them.

23 And when they had laid many stripes upon them, they cast them into prison, charging the jailor to keep them safely:

24 Who, having received such a charge, thrust them into the inner prison, and made their feet fast in the stocks.

25 And at midnight Paul and Silas prayed, and sang praises unto God: and the prisoners heard them.

26 And suddenly there was a great earthquake, so that the foundations of the prison were shaken: and immediately all the doors were opened, and every one's bands were loosed.

27 And the keeper of the prison awaking out of his sleep, and seeing the prison doors open, he drew out his sword, and would have killed himself, supposing that the prisoners had been fled.

28 But Paul cried with a loud voice, saying, Do thyself no harm: for we are all here.

29 Then he called for a light, and sprang in, and came trembling, and fell down before Paul and Silas,

30 And brought them out, and said, Sirs, what must I do to be saved?

31 And they said, Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved, and thy house.

32 And they spake unto him the word of the Lord, and to all that were in his house.

33 And he took them the same hour of the night, and washed their stripes; and was baptized, he and all his, straightway.

34 And when he had brought them into his house, he set meat before them, and rejoiced, believing in God with all his house.

35 And when it was day, the magistrates sent the serjeants, saying, Let those men go.

36 And the keeper of the prison told this saying to Paul, The magistrates have sent to let you go: now therefore depart, and go in peace.