Friday, January 29, 2021

THE 144 000


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THE 144 000 

In order for me to talk about the 144 000 spoken of in Revelations 14, I need to take a bit of a detour that I think will give some clarification as to just who these 144 000 are.  Although a lengthy devotion, I do think that it will bless you.  And may I be so bold as to say that all things of great value is worth our time and if we think not, are we then worth the things of great value?  I do not claim to know all there is, but I cannot deny the way the Spirit has led me to this understanding, which is truly a blessing to me.  And I pray will be for you as well. 

In 1 Corinthians 7 we read how Paul is having a discussion with regard to marriage and how he commends that all men be like him, that is to say unmarried.  This seems quite contradictory to the scripture that says in the last days there will be men who will forbid to marry.  However, this is not what Paul is saying.  He is not making this mandatory, but rather saying that even though marriage is an institute for the purpose of being a provision for us not to fornicate, that the best is actually to abstain so as to not be caught in the cares of this world.  This is inevitable because once we are married, numerous responsibilities and cares do come our way and we are then forced to be divided between seeking His Kingdom first and the needs of our families and all that it contains.  He addresses both man and woman to tend to Lord without distractions. 

Sadly this causes our Christianity to somehow to have to adapt to this world system instead of the world system adapting to true Christianity.  And therefore Christianity has become commercialized, even being so worldly that one can no longer see the difference between the two.  And this is exactly what Paul was getting at.  It was not because he had a problem with marriage, but rather he was contending for that which is pure and undefiled.  That which is untouched by this world system and preserved jealously for the glory of the Lord, which is our temples.  And what would such a one look like?  How would such a one’s conduct be and why would the Holy Spirit inspire Paul to commend all to be like him?  These are questions we need to ask and meditate on.  Was this merely a suggestion or a good idea according to Paul?  What kind of devotion of heart and consecration requires one to be that undefiled and undistracted Christian?  To not succumb to the Christian culture but to the heavenly standard so contrary to this world.

Today we look at monks or nuns and find them extreme, unrealistic and out of date.  They are bland as their clothes and have no idea how to enjoy life.  They are completely cut off.  And that is exactly it.  This contradicts everything that even the church values and esteems, which is the marriage institute, and is an affront to them, never mind this present world. In Acts 8 we read about Philip meeting up with the Ethiopian eunuch in charge of the King’s harem.  This eunuch was a man of great authority in charge of all the Queen’s treasures.  It is interesting to note how this Ethiopian eunuch was traveling to attend the feasts in Jerusalem.  Obviously a man in search of truth and the God of Israel.  And God knowing the heart of this man, his dedication to search Him out from a far country, provided in the form of Philip to speak of Him whom this man sought.  God knows whether we are truly seeking Him.  He knows whether we will go the extra mile so to speak in finding Him.  This unique and brief incident ultimately resulted in the gospel being proclaimed in Africa.

For those unsure about what an eunuch is, it is those chosen to overlook and be in charge of the King’s harem, his many wives, and were castrated so as to not procreate and fornicate with them.  In Matthew 19 Jesus, like Paul, speaks about marriage and divorce saying the following:

 Matthew 19: 11 - 12

11 But he said unto them, All men cannot receive this saying, save they to whom it is given.

12 For there are some eunuchs, which were so born from their mother's womb: and there are some eunuchs, which were made eunuchs of men: and there be eunuchs, which have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He that is able to receive it, let him receive it.

This is the very thing that Paul was speaking of.  If it was difficult to receive this truth then, how much more now in this present age?  What kind of man willingly lies down to be circumcised, let alone to be castrated?  Is this a call to not be married and enjoy life?  Not at all.  It is however God’s provision and wisdom for us to be as those who are married and yet not.  As both a type and shadow, but also to not marry being the commendable thing to do for the Kingdom of God.  Paul says the following in

1 Corinthians 7:29-31

29 But this I say, brethren, the time is short: it remains, that both they that have wives be as though they had none;

30 And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that buy, as though they possessed not;

31 And they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passes away.

This is not to say that we place our ministry above our family and neglect them, for the word says such a man is worse than an unbeliever.  What he is saying is that when we choose to become eunuchs for Christ, it is choosing the Kingdom of God above all else, even if it may look to all around us as if we are neglecting our families.  As if we are married, and though as not being married.   That we would follow Him wherever He may lead us, because we have affectively been “cut off”. 

God is seeking those who are willing to be cut off that He may appoint unto them great authority, to be over His treasures and to be trusted with His “wives”.  To protect her and guide her and even give up his own life for her.  Not abuse her and fornicate with her in order to procreate from out of his dependence of his own flesh for his own purposes.  Which means that the eunuchs are those who have absolutely no dependence on the flesh. Completely and utterly cut off!

I am reminded of Paul’s conversion and what an ultimate conversion it was.  We read in Acts 9 about his divine encounter with the Lord on the road of Damascus.  A particular verse caught my attention.  It states that while he was speaking to the Lord, the men around him saw no man, but could hear a voice.  And it states that Saul rose from the earth, and when his eyes were opened, he saw no man.  They could not see Christ, but Paul could see no man.  The part that said so much to me was the part where it says that he rose from the earth.  From the dust.  It took an encounter with God to bring him into blindness where he had to be led by hand.  In that one moment he was blind, baptized in weakness and unable to see any man. This great man of God who was a chosen vessel had to be brought to such weakness and devastation.  Ananias were told to go and meet him and the Lord said the following to him.

“He is a chosen vessel unto Me, to bear My Name before the Gentiles, and kings, and the children of Israel.  For I will show him how great things he must suffer for My Name.”

This same man could say I am nothing not only in his conversion, but also by beatings, being shipwrecked, fighting with beasts, and many more incidents.  Not because he ascribed to the ideal of being nothing, but in fact was brought to the reality of it.  And therefore, like the Ethiopian eunuch, became a man of great authority, overseer of the treasures of heaven and in charge of the King’s Bride.  This man, Paul, the eunuch of God, was shown the greatest hidden treasures of God, the mysteries of the gospel written in his epistles, for us to be fed and trained up in righteousness centuries after his death.

With my previous post I have gone into detail about my daughter’s various disorders, emphasizing the devastation I felt with regard to her Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  For this I have no cure, no step 1 to 10, no idea even how to handle it on a day to day basis.  I felt utterly weak as one cut off.  In fact I told the Lord that I felt like my legs were cut off.  I was told by Father that this was His provision for me to teach me to war.  And knowing His ways with me it will not be the conventional way. I knew that there was more to it.  It made no sense to me how her disorder could teach me to war.  He told me that it was to baptize me in weakness.  This reminded me of the conversation I had with Him the previous day saying that it was so like Him to make us weak in order to send us out to war.  Little did I know how significant that statement was!

My sister in law’s father died of a heart attack on Sunday.  He had diabetes and somehow he managed to hurt his foot.  Gangrene set in and it was obvious that he was not going to make it.  The night before my brother felt an urgency to go and talk to him about his salvation.  In the end he gave his life to the Lord and my brother baptized him.  The next day he died.  What amazing grace!  This morning I had a vision of a close up of an eye looking to and fro.  I also received the number 16.  The Strong’s Concordance was no help in this, but I remembered that there was a verse in the word that speaks of the eyes of the Lord going to and fro.  Just so happens to be chapter 16.  This chapter is about King Asa that was known mostly in his reign over Judah as a righteous king.  However, towards the end he made a covenant with Baasha from Syria, and this caused war to break out and there to be no more peace.  In the end he died in his bed from a foot disease because he trusted not in God but in his physicians.  Needless to say that, that caught my attention.  The physicians in this regard is to say that he trusted in man instead of God. 

2 Chronicles 16:9

For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him.

This perfect is the word blameless, unharmed and keeping covenant.  He is searching for those to whom He can show Himself strong to.  One can only show yourself strong to someone who in fact needs it, that is to say when they are weak.  And we see that King Asa leaned on the arm of the flesh, which either caused gout or maybe even diabetes.  Who knows?  God will not share His glory with anyone and those who are jealous for His glory will guard their hearts from trusting in the flesh at all times.  To be a eunuch who has no confidence in the flesh. 

Both Jesus and Paul were eunuchs, and this is where my attention is drawn to the 144 000.  We read in Isaiah 53 that Jesus was without deceit, which is to say without guile.   Which is the selfless disposition in having no consideration for oneself in whatever you do or say.  For more on this subject please refer to my devotional called The Silence of the Lamb, on my website.  We read the following:

10 …he shall see his seed,

11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied:

12 Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong;

In verse 12 we see the Father dividing a portion of the great to Jesus and also Jesus dividing the spoil of the strong.  Both are dividing.

Father is in fact giving Jesus two inheritances.  This is the seed that He is referring to in verse 10 and 11.  So we have two words of significance.  The word great and the word strong.  And both will be divided.  This word divided in the Strong’s Concordance is H2505 which is the word smooth or smooth stone that were used to cast lots.  The word great is H7227, which refers to ten thousands or multitudes.  The word strong is H6099 which is powerful, but also blind and to close the eyes.  I cannot help but to think of Paul who was blind at his conversion and ended up writing, “when I am weak, then I am strong”. 

This travail of His soul will inevitably bring forth an inheritance which is His seed.  In the next chapter of Isaiah, chapter 54, we read how God is addressing the daughter of Zion who is barren, for she will have more children than the married wife.  He says that now He is her Husband.  Once again the issue of a eunuch is brought to the forefront which is the issue of not leaning or depending on the flesh to produce.  We see multiple examples of barren women in the Word whom God has promised seed, like Sara, Rachel and Hannah.  God has a thing for barrenness.  It is his provision to show Himself strong for us.   For those who lean not on the flesh and have been cut off.  Whilst you are circumcised you can still produce seed, but once you are cut off you are indeed barren.  Very much like a dried up branch where there is no longer any sap to be found and therefore no fruit.  Just like Paul, who travails for his spiritual children in prayer, Jesus through His intercession as the High Priest by His blood, has travailed in order that He too may have seed, which is His inheritance.  The great and the strong.  The Gentile and the Jew. 

We read in Revelation 14 of the 144 000 who has his Father’s name on their foreheads and they sang a song that only they could learn.  They were redeemed from the earth.  It says that these were they who were not defiled with women, for they are virgins.  The word virgin in the Strong’s Concordance is G3933, which is the word maiden or unmarried daughter.  No mention of a man here.  I am not excluding men, but I am wanting to make it clear that it will not be exclusively men either.  The issue is not man or woman, the issue is unmarried, undefiled and pure.  Those who He is looking for to show himself strong. 

In verse 5 in Revelation 14 we read:

Revelation 14:5

And in their mouth was found no guile: for they are without fault before the throne of God.

This bring us back to 2 Chronicles 16: 9

2 Chronicles 16:9

For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him.

The words without fault and perfect being those who are without guile as He was. 

There is said that presently virgin men have been brought up in seclusion being taught the Torah and keeping them undefiled from woman and this world as the 144 000.  I feel compelled to not agree with this as our type and shadow Jesus and also Paul, although virgins and eunuchs, was not kept from this world, but was indeed cut off from this world, having no confidence in the flesh.  In John 17, Jesus High Priestly prayer, we hear Him praying for the 144 000,

John 17

I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.

10 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them.

11 And now I am no more in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to thee. Holy Father, keep through thine own name those whom thou hast given me that they may be one, as we are.

He is referring to those the Father has given Him and that the Father must keep them in His name, which is the name that will be on the 144 000’s foreheads.

14 I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.

15 I pray not that thou should take them out of the world, but that thou should keep them from the evil.

16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.

17 Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is truth.

18 As thou hast sent me into the world, even so have I also sent them into the world.

These 144 000 were in the world, but not of this world.  Nathaniel in John 1 had an encounter with Jesus in which Jesus boldly proclaimed, “Behold, an Israelite without guile!”  And to him was said, Hereafter ye shall see heaven open, and the angels ascending and descending upon the Son of Man”.  Interesting that Philip was the one to introduce Nathaniel to Jesus, and Philip was also the one to introduce the Ethiopian eunuch to Him on the way.  Philip himself being a type and shadow of the 144 000.

I have noticed that many are quite eager to be counted worthy to be part of the 144 000, not really sure who they really are and what would constitute to receive the Name of the Father upon their foreheads.  The white stones previously mentioned was a Roman custom where after an athletic race the victors were awarded a white stone with their name on.  It served also as a “ticket” to a special awards banquet.  We read about this white stone in Revelation 2: 17.

Revelation 2:17

17 He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches; To him that overcomes will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will give him a white stone, and in the stone a new name written, which no man knows saving he that receiveth it.

This refers back to what we read with regard to the word dividing, which means smooth stone that referred to the great.  This great would then be the multitudes, but the strong will not receive a stone with a new name, but the name of the Father on their foreheads and a song only they can learn. 

I somehow want to think of those who overcome as those who are the great, the circumcised.  There are in fact many that are circumcised in comparison to those who are strong, the castrated ones.  The dry branches, the weak ones, the Eunuchs of God.  We cannot ascribe to these things, these great truths in the Word and not live in the reality of them.  To be great you will have to have your heart circumcised, but to be strong, you will have to be castrated, which is to be baptized in utter weakness, unable to produce any seed except through the travail of the Spirit and the incorruptible seed of the Word of God.

In closing a word I received from the Lord two weeks ago, which He has now released me to share. 

BURNING BUSHES

Even as you seek for the driest branch to make a fire, so do I.  As was the case with the burning bush of Moses.  For any bush will indeed do, but have you lost all?  Have you forsaken all and let it fall to the ground?  Are you still rooted in this world?  For they will look upon you as a dry branch, good for nothing.  But I will pick you up and gather you together to make My fire. 

And as I spoke through the bush, I speak through those who are dried up.  Nothing in them or on them.  Not their gifts, not their ministries, not approval, not man’s opinion…nothing.  Dried up!  So I seek those out who has given all, so that I may answer through them with fire.  Are you dried up or are there still the residue of the fuel of this world in you?  All!  Not just the worldly and earthly, but especially the spiritual.  Do they still cling to you like fruit on a tree?  Shake off! Shake off!  Stand before Me barren, broken and dry, and I will use you because I alone get the glory.  I alone will be glorified, not you.  As a branch thrown away by this world, but gathered by Me.

Please Read:

Revelation 14

Isaiah 53

Psalm 24

Tuesday, January 26, 2021

LET YOUR FAITH MATCH...




LET YOUR FAITH MATCH YOUR HOPELESSNESS


Let your faith match your hopelessness. As you see your circumstances measure it against My greatness. See it either from below or from above. How big your faith is depends on your view.

Through your eyes or mine. Have I not said that I will give faith to the measure you need? I know how much you need and it is to be found in Me. Not in what you can muster up from within, but in the secret place where you behold Me. If your eyes are fixed on me in the storm, all you see is Me. If you look to the storm, all you see is the storm. The storm is not a phantom, neither am I.

Will you turn to Me and receive of Me that which only I can give? The will to go on. The hope when yours is gone. The strength when you are weak. The wisdom when you no longer know.

If you see Me from your emptiness, you see me from what you can do... nothing. But, look from the abundance of My storehouse, for with Me nothing is impossible.

Faith to believe that I can do all. How empty you are of all you can do will determine how you lean on Me.

Let your faith match your hopelessness.


Scripture ref:

Hebrews 11:1


King James Version


11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

THE SILENCE OF THE LAMB

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THE SILENCE OF THE LAMB

 

I have received some beautiful revelations from Father in this week and how they came to me is so typical of my walk with Him.  I had a “moment” with my daughter this weekend that caused me so much frustration that I thought that I was about to explode.  A whole lot of pent up frustration.  In order for you to understand and have context why I say this, it is necessary that you understand my present situation, but also to hold it in the light of what Father is saying to you through this devotional.  By no means am I seeking sympathy or consolation.  This is for your edification as much as it is for mine. 

My daughter has 3 different disorders.  She has SPD (Sensory Processing Disorder), which basically means that all her senses, her touch, sight, movement and hearing, are all overcharged and easily overstimulated.  I call her neurons “super neurons”.  This created from a very young age an extreme sense of feeling out of control and very unsafe.  Because of this sense of loss of control, it introduced the next disorder as it slowly developed into anxiety.  She has both general and social anxiety which means she pretty much have anxiety about general things we would not even consider.  The social anxiety is then linked to many insecure feelings and therefore an inability to just be and have eye contact.  She is now 16 years old in February and so this has been my “normal”.  These disorders are what typically are to be associated with those on the autism spectrum.  It is a whole basket of goodies so to speak.  One of those are the accompanying obsessive behaviors.  These stem out of a need to create a safe environment and to have a sense of control.  I have seen these obsessive behaviors as the cherry on the cake.  And this is what my moment was all about this week. Her compulsive behavior escalated from being a tiny cherry to a whole new cake!  All my pent up frustrations was born out of the fact that I was not in control of what I was subjected to, which was her overbearing questions day in and day out. I discovered that her obsessive behavior is not that of what we typically would consider to be OCD, which is to repeatedly wash your hands, or check the windows or doors, or different repeated actions.    She has relational obsessive compulsions.  The same questions are asked over and over and the truth is that it is not about the answer but the question in itself, which is the obsessive behavior.  It comes in the form of threats, pleas, panic attacks, whining and outright assault at times.  It never stops, nor does it give you a break to catch your breath.  It is a constant assault on your sanity and it sucks you into a whirlpool of trying to make sense of it all.  There is no peace in that whirlpool.  I discovered that her OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) is on three levels.  She constantly worries about whether she will die.  I cannot even mention any symptoms of any sickness.  She is finely tuned into the slightest discomfort in her body.  Google has no match to her on how long she predicts to be alive before she dies a horrible death according to her.  Then she also constantly obsesses whether any friends or interactions are true.  She doubts her interactions and theirs.  The last obsession is her relationship with the Lord.  She doubts everything she says to Him and has to repeat prayers over and over in order to convince herself that what she has done is indeed sufficient.  It is obsession within obsession.  My job according to her is to convince her otherwise.

When the realization hit me that this cherry is indeed a cake, I was reliving the moment I first received the diagnoses of her anxiety and SPD disorders.  A silence creeps in and settles into a numbness.  This is followed with grief and a sense of being completely overwhelmed.  In that moment of utter devastation so familiar to me, He spoke to me.  No other voice is desired in that moment.  For it is only His voice that can calm a storm.  My daughter has been His main source of molding me into the person I am today.  And because she has given her heart to Him the disorders she has are the main way He molds her now.  She has grown so much in her relationship with the Lord that one seldom see in teenagers, even if it is under the shadow of disorders.  Oh, the manifold wisdom of God!  I willingly submit myself under His mighty and loving hand.  I kiss the hand that smites me. For it is the same hand that will raise me.

In verse 7 of Isaiah 53 we read:

 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he opens not his mouth.

Not many people have seen lambs being slaughtered.  I have from a young age been exposed to this reality and it is truly remarkable how silently that lamb lies there, without even making one move or sound, even whilst its throat is being slit.  It is truely one of the most surreal things to watch.In this regard Father has given me provision for His call unto priesthood in the form of 3 words that serve as a compass on this very difficult journey  Please read the devotional posted before this called "A call unto Priesthood".. 

Last year the words were Discernment, Discipline and Devotion.  I wrote a book called “The Fields of Gold” discussing these three words.  I encourage you to download it from my website for free under the My Books page.  It is in pdf format.   It is a culmination of 12 years of sanctification that I have gone through and it is for the ministering of the Bride.  This year the words I received are Simplicity, Solitude and Silence.  A brief description of what I mean by Simplicity, Solitude and Silence is necessary so that you may understand why this is a provision unto priesthood. 

Simplicity is that of which constitute living without distractions.  A simple life where things are not complicated, even if the world is.  Having a childlike faith.  Where you only do one thing at a time and are never in a hurry.  Even eating simplistic and slowly.  Living with intention and focus.

Solitude is that which I spoke in The Call unto Priesthood” devotion about of being without father, mother or neighbor.  It is without soulish ties to not only people but the things of this world, even the Christian credence and direction.  It is all together being set apart for Him.  It is walking with God alone.  The abiding alone in His presence even when you are with people.  A. W. Tozer said, “The saint must walk alone”. 

Silence is that of silencing the voices without and your own voice in order to hear and speak when, how and what as He determines.  To have the ability to take all your thoughts captive and not just the negative. 

As is true with the ways of God, which is the wisdom of God, there are always different degrees we enter into them.  Always dependent on the degree we are willing to die to self.  These 3 words are interwoven and have an influence on one another to the degree you are in them and live them out on a daily basis.  And of course, we can all do these things, but the question remains, “Can we do them as a way of life?”  That is to say without end.  The issue of these 3 words are Priestliness, which is holiness.  We see holiness as the absence of sin, but God sees it as a consecrated life unto Him.  Two very different things.  All is worship to the priest and worship is not just a song we sing, it is the life we live. 

The reason why this particular verse in Isaiah 53 caught my attention is because of the subject He has been bringing to my attention of late.  This subject is the word guile which is the key to silence in the context explained as before.  Guile according to the dictionary is to be cunning or deceptive.  It is about having an ulterior motive.  At the essence of being without guile is to not have any consideration for oneself.  Let that sink in a bit.

I caught myself in the act of transgressing and miserably failing at simplicity this weekend.  As mothers do I was multitasking like crazy.  Something I am quite good at, which makes it all the more a temptation and strength to which I am to die to.  I asked Father what it was specifically I was to die to with regard to multitasking. 

“Impulse”

Did not see that coming.

He said that impulse is that which stems out of ulterior motives, even if they are good.  If anyone had to ask you to define impulse, you would probably hear that it is to act without thinking. 

“So what does impulse have to do with multitasking?” I asked?

“I am never in a hurry and I am never late”. 

To cease from multitasking is to teach us the ability to not be hasty, to be intentional, focus and to learn self-control.  Particularly in the area of waiting.  Something seriously lacking in this microwave culture of today.  It is then that the revelation dawned on me.  WAITING IS PRIESTLY.  The reason we wait is so that what we do is directed by the Spirit of God and not by our good intentions, desire to be heard, frustrations, or even because we are “the go to guy” for advice.  My circumstances are loaded with demands, threats and so many “voices” screaming at me to react, to do now that I just stand in awe of His perfect plan to teach me silence, as He sees it, in the midst of all of it.

The Levitical priests after consecration and many animal sacrifices were required to wait outside of the tent of meeting for 7 days.  I realized that this waiting was not a waiting for something, but rather the waiting was the consecration in itself.  Waiting is priestly.  It is to not live from out of our selfish motives and concerns, even legitimate concerns, to be without guile.

We read in the last part of verse 9 in Isaiah 53…

…because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.

That word deceit is a synonym of the word guile.  This absence of guile was the very provision for the Son of God to have been able to not open his mouth and to be as a sheep before His shearers.  And through my precious daughter with her flood of questions, anxiety attacks and heartache, I am oppressed and afflicted, sharing in the suffering of our Savior.  If there is guile to be found in me, I will not be silent and will act out of impulse.  That is not to say that I am to ignore her, but the silence will be that which flows out of guilelessness that will give me the wisdom to answer because I have learned to wait.  In the first line of verse 10 in Isaiah 53 we read a staggering truth that few have contemplated.  When I read it in light of what I am enduring I could only cry.  Something transpired in me.  It changed me and left me in wonder at the wisdom of God.  Not only that, but the privilege of it all. 

Isaiah 53: 10

Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him; he hath put him to grief

Jesus is the Patterned Son, our Forerunner.  He said, “Take up your cross and follow Me”.  Not all of us have the same crosses to bear.  It comes in different forms.  It behooves us to discern between spiritual attacks and our crosses to bear.  However, what we need to grasp and contemplate is how we bear our cross.  Are we without guile?  When our buttons are pushed, do we have to defend ourselves?  Are we running with the crowd or have we seen the gift that silence truly is.  Are we priestly in our lives no matter what we do?  Because when Jesus as the spotless Lamb of God laid on the altar, He laid His life down willingly.  Not trying to save face or defend Himself.  His sacrifice was priestly.  Is the sacrifice of your life that you bring to Him priestly or is there still self-serving and self-consideration in your doing?  Is there guile?  Are you able to wait?

My mentor, Arthur Katz, once said the following, “Martyrdom is meekly suffering in adversity, even unto death.  It is the ultimate expression of love and resurrection life”. 

How you die now matters, because it will determine how you will die should it be required of you one day. 

Psalm 116:15

Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints

The day may come when I will have to lay my life down and how I lay it down will be the summation of all my dying I have done up until that very moment.  Will I be struggling, defending or even crying out, or will I be without guile?  Will I be dumb and silent as a lamb led to the slaughter?

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Isaiah 53