Tuesday, December 6, 2022



I have noticed via private messages and posts that there are many who are experiencing spiritual attacks right now. There are three reasons for spiritual attacks that I feel impressed upon my heart to share.

1.    The first one I would like to mention is that the enemy at times wants to stop the assignments given to us. 

He wants to frustrate the purposes of God.  Even in the writing of this post, he tried his best to frustrate the writing.  And even though he can frustrate our assignments, he cannot stop them. 

2.      The second one is that of legal right.

As the bird by wandering, as the swallow by flying, so the curse causeless shall not come.

In other words, the bird, representing the curse, cannot find a resting place unless there is a cause. Birds in the word of God is also synonymous to demons.  You will remember that Yeshua gave the parable of the sower, speaking of the fowls of the air that steels the seed sown.  This cause speaks of a reason. There must be a reason for it or in our terms an "open door" in the spirit for the enemy to come and lie, steal and kill. Open doors can be generational or through our own deliberate disobedience. This, in the spirit realm is considered legal ground for the enemy.

3.      The third reason for spiritual attacks is, just like in the case of Job, He allows the attacks by design.


And we know that ALL THINGS work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Before you become a child of God, these attacks are meant to lure you away from Him and to bring you into bondage. However, when you are a child of God, these attacks are meant to draw you to Him and to sanctify you. Therefore, your disposition with regard to attacks from the enemy has to change when you become a child of God. You then are no longer a victim as before, but with each attack you understand and acknowledge that your Father allowed it. Unless you have opened a door through disobedience of course. However, being His child, He even uses your disobedience and the consequences to bring you closer to Him and also to reveal your heart to you. Therefore, though painful, always a win/win situation.

Many years ago someone told me that whenever you want a situation to change, no matter what it is, start with yourself.  I took this to heart and this has been a faithful way that Father has shown me the value of taking my eyes off my “problem” and onto Him.  Many believers when being attacked are prone to become more aware of their enemy in battle than their God.  Suddenly all kinds of prayers are taken out of the woodworks and a call for warfare is sounded.  Meanwhile, back at the ranch, His focus is your heart.  How big would David’s God have been if all he could see was Goliath?  Some of us are facing massive issues or longstanding issues that towers over us as Goliaths.  But all our Goliaths are to stand in the light of who He is.  Sometimes our Goliath is a person.  It could be our spouse, our children and extended family or friends.  We see what they do and how the enemy uses them to attack us.  Our first reaction is, “The enemy is attacking us!” How we react to our Goliaths in the heat of the battle, is the real issue.  This is why He tells us to guard our heart with all diligence, because out of it flows the issues of life.  Our heart is the wellspring of our life and so whatever flows out of us, is the issue He wants to bring before us. 

I told Father the other day that it seems the longer I serve Him the greater the battles. Standing before my own Goliath, I told Him I would like to have a word for this season I am in. I need an anchor. I told Him that I want something specific that will resonate in my spirit as not something in general. That morning in prayer I was reminded of a scripture that perfectly holds hands to what is being said here.



8Then the king of Syria warred against Israel, and took counsel with his servants, saying, In such and such a place shall be my camp.

14Therefore sent he thither horses, and chariots, and a great host: and they came by night, and compassed the city about.

15And when the servant of the man of God was risen early, and gone forth, behold, an host compassed the city both with horses and chariots. And his servant said unto him, Alas, my master! How shall we do?

16And he answered, Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them.

17And Elisha prayed, and said, LORD, I pray thee, open his eyes that he may see. And the LORD opened the eyes of the young man; and he saw: and, behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha.

It is all a matter of perspective.  The 10 spies saw themselves as grasshoppers in the sight of the giants in Canaan, but Joshua and Caleb were of a different spirit.  Instead of seeing what the enemy could do, they saw what their God can do.  When I spoke to Father about this scripture regarding seeing the heavenly hosts shown to Elisha’s servant, I told Father that I would rather be living by faith than see all the heavenly hosts.  Elisha did not need to see it to believe it, but his servant did.  The veil over his eyes had to be lifted.  How many of us are still veiled in unbelief when we are facing our giants?  I would rather be Elisha who do not need to see and still believe, that his servant who had to see in order to believe.

This particular scripture is indeed significant to me.  About 3 years ago, my personal intercessor saw a vision of me walking out of my house, looking at the surrounding mountains.  Suddenly the heaven opened up and I could see chariots and angels.  She said it seemed the most natural thing for me to be able to see in the spirit.  The Lord reminded me of this vision and I could only say, “Yes Lord, but give me the faith first before the seeing.”  It is by faith we please Him.  It is easier to believe when we see, but much more difficult when He does not seem to answer or the one thing after the other goes wrong. 


A while back I had a dream.  I dreamed that I was walking down a corridor of a very shabby looking apartment building.  I could hear people arguing, glass breaking, the TV’s on and just poverty where I looked.  I could see into one living room.  There on the floor, sitting in the dust, was a little blond haired girl with her dirty white dress.  Towering over her was whom I can only think as her father dressed in a white vest, hairy big chest and build.  He was sporting a stubble beard, beer belly and bald head.  A very scary looking man.  The next moment he picked her up and walked out of the room towards staircase going down.  Just before the stairs he put her down and she followed him as he led the way into another room.  The moment he entered, she quickly closed the door behind him and locked the door.  Immediately she spun around and ran back to her home.  At this point I noticed her teddy bear under her arm.  When I woke up the Spirit said the following to me, “Even a young child can bind a strongman.”  The teddy bear speaks of the Holy Spirit who is our Comforter.  We give teddy bears to little children in order to comfort them.

Father later confirmed this to me in a very special way.  I have an aunt, who has now passed away, who used to be a missionary for many years.  He has used her significantly to confirm many things to me.  This photo above is my aunt.  My mother showed me this photo a week or so after the dream.  

What He wants from us is childlike trust when we face our Goliaths.  Yes, we are to be bold and courageous, but this boldness and courage comes not because we muster up the will, but out of a deep seated dependence upon Him in everything.  We are to look to Him with the eyes of a young child.  All our Goliaths stand in the light of who He is.  His promise to us is that no weapon formed against us will prosper.  Not one.  Every single one He will use for our good and He will fight for us.  We just need to come to Him and know that if He allowed it, He must have a great purpose with it.  Nobody can snatch us out of the Father's hands.  Therefore, everything that happens to us, we can know that he holds our hand and will gently guide us by His Spirit.  He will not leave us comfortless.  Children trust in simplicity.  They simply think, "My Dad can handle this."  They do not need to see to believe.  This is why the Kingdom of God belongs to children.  Do we think this way or are we more aware of our enemy?  We are not to be ignorant of the enemy's wiles, but our focus must be Him in all things. 

Let us rest in His all suffiency in all things.


10 To the intent that now unto the principalities and powers in heavenly places might be known by the church the manifold wisdom of God,

11 According to the eternal purpose which he purposed in Christ Jesus our Lord:

12 In whom we have boldness and access with confidence by the faith of him.

13 Wherefore I desire that ye faint not at my tribulations for you, which is your glory.

Scripture reference:

Hebrews 12

TIME TO FACE THE GIANTS (received August 2021)

My child, it has been through many seasons I have prepared you, sanctifying and setting you apart for such a time as this.

Do you recognize your season?  For everything there is a season and a time.  Do you know your season?  Have I prepared and sanctified you only to put you aside?   Am I not raising My warriors for such a time as this?  Is this not the Joshua generation?  The generation that have been prophesied about?  Where do you stand?  Are you standing on the Rock?  Are you established on the Rock?

If so, then stand.  Having done all, stand!

For as the enemy and his hosts are rising, having been prepared, so My mighty warriors too will rise up in the strength of their God.  Do you recognize your season?  Every single one of you I have prepared to equip you for this season as the Captain of the Hosts.  But having the mind of a child is one thing and true.  And having the mind of a warrior another.  In which season are you in?

Do you recognize your own personal giants that I have allowed in order to train you?  Have you placed your feet upon his neck in the spirit?  Or are you hiding as David did in the cave?  Are you hiding as Elijah did?  For even the cave has its lessons, but one does not stay in the cave.  One does not stay in the desert.

Cross over.  This is a transition time for My Bride to take her rightful place in Me.  Who are your giants?  Are you facing them or tiptoeing around them?  Are you in hiding or progressively taking the ground that I have given you?  It’s time to cross over.  Not in pride, but in humility and holiness.

For My glory shall shine on Priest and Warrior alike.  My glory will be your rearguard and will go before you.  Do not fear.  I am with you. 

Therefore, have the mind of Christ, the Captain of the Hosts.  Follow Him into the battle.  Cry out to Him in a time of need for He is mighty to save.  Learn of Him continually for it is He who has already overcome as you now need to do.  Recognize the season and see your giants and pursue your enemy.

Those who have sought My face and have overcome in the wilderness will see their enemy flee in seven ways.  Watch therefore, follow Me and take up your sword.

It's time to face your giants. 

Saturday, December 3, 2022



I remember when I was going through a particular difficult time in my marriage.  On one occasion my husband made a joke, which I found very funny.  I laughed and at that particular moment a love for him filled my heart.  It was then that the Spirit said to me, “It does not matter how you see him, only how I see him.”  This stuck with me as He started to speak to me about those we pray for.  How important it is before you pray for someone to ask Him how He sees them.  To ask Him what we are to pray for, even if we know logically what to pray for, we still need to ask.  He will reveal His heart about them to you. Out of that context we can pray.  When we do not pray in this way, we pray out of the filters or our own heart.  Whether a negative disposition, unforgiveness, bitterness, opinions or traditions instead of being guided by the Spirit of God.  This changes our prayers radically and protects us to pray from a place of sentimentality and to rather be guided by the Spirit.  In Isaiah 55:8 He says that His thoughts are higher than ours and our ways are not His ways.  He thinks differently and so it behooves us to understand that because He has given us the mind of Christ, the Spirit knows what the will of the Father is and prays through us the will of the Father.  We need to see the way He sees.

This has to do with discernment and discernment is the ability to see as He sees.  Discernment is not about what is wrong or right.  I recently did a post on my blog called “Liberated by His love” wherein I discuss how love liberates us from black and white thinking, of being burdened under the law.   Even things pertaining to revelations or understanding we get through dreams and visions or what His true name is, the calendars or Sabbath, become a law unto us.  We then place people in a box of “have and have not’s or do’s and do not’s”, thinking in black and white. He says to us to not walk in our own understanding, but in all our ways to acknowledge Him.  This also means in that which you know are right, don’t even lean on that.  Always lean on Him and ask Him what He thinks.  He is the Light and light has all the colors of the color wheel spectrum in it.  Love sees in color, which is light, in color and not black and white.  He wants us in absolute dependence upon Him.  We are to walk by the Spirit and the fulfillment of the law is through love.  Love liberates, the law binds.  In this way, our discernment, our ability to see as He sees is radically changed.  For this, He has to reveal His love for us in such a way that we are set free to walk by grace.  This grace finds its full expression through love.  Loving as He does. 

In Matthew 6 we read the following:


22 The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.

Light is synomous to revelation or understanding and the eye is your ability to discern.  If you have revelation, your body will be full of light. 

23 But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!

Having a single eye speaks of an undivided eye.  A single eye is a reference to dove’s eyes.  In Song of Solomon, Solomon tells the bride that she has dove’s eyes and just one look from her overcomes him.  She only has eyes for Him.  A dove does not have peripheral vision and therefore can only see one thing at a time.  This is why they cock their heads in order to see something.  Their eye is undivided.  So our eyes are to be undivided and not have a black and white mentality, but see through the eyes of love.   We are to see as He sees.  In this way, our whole body shall be full of light.  We will not be blind to the wrong, but there will be a rest because we see as He does.  On the other hand when your eye is evil, it says that the light in you is also darkness.  This means that an evil eye sees in black and white.  And that white or light itself is darkness.  How great is that darkness then!  In other words, our eyes, our ability to discern is in darkness when we only see in black and white.  We are to walk in the light and to walk in the light is to walk in Him.  Life is not viewed in monochrome then, but in color. 

This brings me to me sitting one day looking out onto the trees and birds.  I was meditating on how everything in life that He surrounds us with, is an expression or display of His love.  Not just nature, but people and their differences, everything that happens to me, good or bad.  It does not matter what it is, when my eye is single, I am full of light and I see in color.  I see His love in everything.  I then said to Him, “You are my all in all.”  I was wondering whether Him being my all in all relates then to the fact that I see Him in all things. When you see as He sees, you are seated in heavenly places and view life from His perspective.  Although in the midst of great darkness, you are able to see light.  I do not need to fear then and whether I truly believe that will constitute whether I truly see in color and through the eyes of love.  His love transcends circumstances and understanding.  It helps us to discern correctly. 

Paul says to us the following…


And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment;

10 That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ.

The word “judgment” here is discernment.  In other words, in discernment and in knowledge, love is to abound.  The word “abound” means to exceed or above number or measure, to overflow.   You may have all the facts and the ability to see right from wrong, but if your love does not abound, you are not seeing as He is seeing, no matter how right you think you are even with the scripture to back you up.  We are to be led by the Spirit and not on the basis of right or wrong.  Hence why he says that we will approve then things that are excellent, guarding our heart at the same time. Love protects us from judging wrongfully. 

We need to read the scriptures as if we are there with them in the tribulation.  The book of Philippians is about suffering joyfully.  He is telling them that during this time, this love will help them to discern correctly with whatever happens to them and that they will then walk in sincerity and will not be offended.  During this time, Yeshua tells us that we will be thrown into prison, some of us will die and some will not.  Even of our own brethren will come and bring us before magistrates.  We will need not to prepare anything to say, because at that moment the Spirit will tell us what to say.  We will be led by the Spirit.  In that moment, because of love that abounds, your heart will be without offence and your love sincere and this will make way for an opportunity for people to be saved, because they see that you do not take offence.  They will have an open heart to receive the gospel because you do not take offence.  Who is sufficient for these things?  And yet, the scriptures are written for us as an example and for us to appropriate it.  During this time we need an understanding and revelation of His love. 


17 That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:

18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,

Paul addresses here the fact that they need to receive the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him.  This is the purpose of the Spirit of wisdom and revelation.  Not necessarily that the scriptures need to open up to us, because the scriptures testify of Him, but that we may know Him.  He is light and He is love.  We also need to consider that that which was shall be again.  The first church mentioned in the book of Revelation is the Church of Ephesus and the last church is the Church of Laodicea.  We are now presently in the Church age of Laodicea, the lukewarm church.  Their love is neither hot nor cold and He cannot handle them in His mouth and spits them out.  The next Church Age will start again with the Church of Ephesus, who was told that they have lost their first love.  Their love has gone completely cold.  Paul is addressing the Ephesians and telling them that they need a revelation of who God is.  The eyes of their understanding needs to be enlightened. Paul was addressing the fact that there is a revelation in the knowledge of Him that is linked to his calling upon their lives.  You cannot separate Him from your call.  They desperately needed a revelation of Him.  Their calling can only be understood in the light of who He is.  Did they then not know Him that Paul should pray this?  Of course they did.  He clearly understood their spiritual disposition, hence why Paul specifically prays in Ephesians 3…

Ephesians 3

17 That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,

18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;

19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fullness of God.

20 Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,


Paul’s whole emphasis in Ephesus is love.  This is a time of great persecution and people will then be introduced to the mark of the beast.  It is only when we get to the Church of Smyrna where it is in the heat of the battle where beheadings will take place, because of money.  It is all about money.  Their hearts will grow cold because of suffering and because of money, the desire to save themselves.  We must remember that famine and war will take place and people will want to protect their families and themselves.  In order to do that they will choose then whom they will follow.  They will then choose to hate their mother, father, brother, sister and friends in order to survive and betray them, or they will choose to hate their mother, brother, sister and friends willing to not save themselves and follow Christ.  Only they are accounted worthy to be His disciples.  Those whose hearts have grown cold will find it very difficult to say “no” to those who will put pressure on them in order to save their own lives.  For a morsel of bread they will easily sell their inheritance like Esau.  They will cast us into prison.  Those whom we thought love us, will do this to us.  How will we be able to deal with this if we do not have a revelation of His love?  This is why Paul is emphasizing love over and over. 

Recently He started to talk to me about Paul’s disposition towards his spiritual children.  I noticed how Paul tend to start his letters with “I thank the Lord always for you”.  He had so many problems with them, but he was so grateful for them.  He loved them so much.  He mentions how they are in his heart and that he not only wants to share the gospel with them, but would even give his own soul to them.  What kind of love did Paul have for the brethren?  That kind of love transcends circumstances and understanding.  Just think of the things Paul suffered in order to proclaim the gospel.  Think of the floggings, imprisonment, being shipwrecked, fastings, fighting beasts.  He was willing to endure this for the Church, his children.  The love that Paul had for the church or his spiritual children amazes me.  Paul is the resurrection man, a type and shadow of Christ after the cross.  This is why he could say, “Follow me as I follow Christ” or calling it “his gospel” of grace.  Paul gave up everything for the Church and you see the love of God displayed through this man.  He is a type and shadow of Christ.  We, in the time to come, need a revelation of Father’s love for everybody, for our brothers and sisters and enemy.  In my post “Liberated by His love” I speak about the owl that has a third membrane over its eyes.  I likened this to a veil.  We can know about something theoretically, but still be veiled in our spirit.  You still see in part.  You are not moved by knowledge, but when revelation comes it moves you to action.  This is why in 1 Corinthians 13 Paul speaks of love.  He says that we can have all the revelation and knowledge, all faith and not have love, and be nothing.  We can even give the clothes off our back or burn our bodies, but if we do not have love, we are nothing. Love believes all things, bears and hopes all things.  Love ENDURES ALL THINGS.  Then He says when that which is perfect comes, which is love, all these things will fall away.  That which is perfect that will cause us to see no longer in part, but face to face and to know even as we are known is love.  Paul is talking about clarity of vision and perception and being able to get right to the point, walking in love.  Everything will fall away, but that which will remain is faith, hope and love, and the greatest of these is love.

I recently had an accident with some boiling water that fell on my tummy.  It left a burn mark on me.  I never take anything as insignificant.  After a shower and drying myself, I noticed the scar again and I thought of the fact that it was on my tummy.  Then I took some spray that I have been putting on my hair that has placenta in it.  Immediately I knew what the Spirit was talking to me about.  He was talking to me about child birth.  I thought of Paul’s words in Galatians. Paul had such a love for both Gentile and Jew that he often referred to himself as a mother figure who travails over them.  He says the following…


19 My little children, of whom I travail in birth again until Christ be formed in you,

Little children is an affectionate term.  The word travail here means to feel the pains of child birth.  This is not one who is not touched by their infirmities, but as a mother feels their pain deeply.  He identifies with them as one who loves them deeply.  Paul is willing to go through suffering for the body.  This is the heart of God shown to us by Paul’s disposition towards his spiritual children.  He loved them with His love.  It made me think of the stretch marks a woman has once she has given birth that for some remain permanently.  Paul says the following…


17 From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus.

Here Paul was referring to the suffering he has gone through like the flogging, imprisonment and hunger.  We can only imagine what Paul must have looked like.  The marks all over his body.  This “mark” in the Strong’s means to be branded or burned like a slave would be to show who his master is.  Like the burn mark on my tummy.  This Paul did for their sake.  This too will be our mark or brand in the time to come, bearing the marks of the Lord Jesus even on our bodies.  We will not be a pretty sight.  But, it will be an honor and a glory.  We will be branded and in travail for the body of Christ.  So that Christ may be formed in those little ones, the harvest we will bring in.  Two well-known intercessors who bore the marks of the Lord Jesus on their bodies are Praying Hyde and Father Nash.  Praying Hyde was known for his desire for souls. He was so moved and passionate about souls that it is said that one day when rushed to hospital, the doctor said that in agony of prayer his heart has moved and that he could have died.  This gives new meaning to “my heart was moved.” Then, we have Father Nash who was known as the intercessor who always went two weeks in advance to pray for the revival when Charles Finney spoke.  They would find dents in the floor where He was on his knees in prayer.  James, the apostles was also known as “Old camel knees” as his knees was hardened through prayer.  People that are driven to give themselves for the sake of the gospel and for lost souls.  This is a love that transcends human understanding.  In the same way we read of the travail of Yeshua on the cross for all of mankind in Isaiah 53 giving an account of what he endured.  We then read the following…


11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.

What does it mean He shall see the travail of his soul? The travail is the cross, but also His life.  When you travail you are giving birth.   It means He shall see the fruit of His labor.  The children He has brought forth through labor.  Even Yeshua is giving birth to sons and daughters through suffering.  A willingness to lay His life down.  This seems to be the currency in saving souls, the willingness to suffer.

I will never forget the day I asked Him to show me His love for the Jews.  It was as if I was a little child under a table and the table cloth was just slightly lifted for me to peek through.  The moment that love hit me, I was down for the count.  I cried for days and that was just a moment in time, just a little peek.   That kind of love has no boundaries, none.  It will die for another.  That is the love we need.  Richard Wurmbrand in his book, “Tortured for Christ”, was beside himself wanting to save people.  Wondering whether they are really saved.  Are we?

In the Bride of Christ, we have the faithful and the unfaithful bride.  We have the awake and the sleeping Bride or the lukewarm Bride.  An example of the faithful Bride would be Ruth.    Ruth told Noami, “Your people will be my people and your God will be my God.”  Boaz gave Ruth a good report, telling her that she is virtuous and that she has left father and mother and her country.  Ruth is harvesting with Boaz.   Recently I was led to the book of Hosea.  We know that the book of Hosea is about a prophet who was told by the LORD God to take for himself a woman of whoredom and children of whoredom.  A prophetic act of the marriage between the LORD God and Israel.  He is not only to take her, but told to love her.  Think of what it means to be a prophet, living a holy and set apart life unto God where your every move and word is scrutinized by those around you, and then to receive this instruction to become one with a woman of whoredom.  This by no means could have been easy.  He had to constantly take her back after her adultery and love her again.  Remember, we are speaking of the disposition of the Bride of Christ, the workers, in the time that we are going in.  This is with regard to the lukewarm Church, or adulterous Church and our enemies.  Ruth is an example of this Bride that is like Hosea.  What I want to bring across is that when we first give our lives to the Lord, He first starts to speak to us about His love for us personally.  He comes and reveals His Father heart to us, His mother heart through the Holy Spirit and His Bridal love through Yeshua.  Constantly speaking to us about His love, affirming us, comforting and healing us.  At first alluring us into the desert to speak softly to us.  Then in Song of Solomon 8 she comes out of the wilderness leaning upon Him.  No longer lured, but she has become one with Him.  Once you have come out of the desert, you are no longer one that needs to seek that love and affirmation from Him.  You are secure and at rest in His love.  You no longer need affirmations of how He loves you.  You do not need to hear how He will protect or provide for you.  You do not need any of those things.  You know that you know.  You have gone through your wilderness where He has stripped you of everything and have become your source.  There is no lack or want in Him (Psalm 34). When you are in Him you have no lack or want.  Ruth has found her provision and protection in her Boaz.  Coming back to Hosea, he had to die many things in order to walk in authenticity of that call.  And we know that Yeshua was told in the same way by the Father to take for Him a woman of whoredom and children of whoredom.  The Bride is in Christ when she works here during the tribulation.  She now is as a prophetic entity, like Hosea, taking and marrying herself to the left behind.  Choosing to love them.  She is now no longer the one needing the affirmation of love, she is now the vessel of love.  She is now willing to pour out her life, like Paul, willing to travail in birth.  Willing to bear the marks on her body of Christ for her spiritual children. 

Let us see this also in the context of Jew and Gentile.  Ruth is an example of the Gentile Bride.  She was a Moabite and Boaz a Jew.  In the same way we find Moses, a Jew, married to Zipporah, who was also a Moabite.  The Jew and Gentile connection right through the Bible.   We have the wife of God consisting of both Jew and Gentile, and within them the faithful and the unfaithful.  Outside of them we also have the enemies that He died for.  This is what He wants the Bride to understand, having the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, that you will be able to perceive and understand the love that He has for the lost.  And because you see the way He sees, you will be willing to lay your life down.  I remember years ago, I knew that there was a love that I needed from Him that transcends understanding.  Not just any kind of love, but His love.  A love that transcends anything I can comprehend.  I prayed for this love.  I remember exactly where I stood when I asked Him.  And His reply to me was, “You do not know what you ask.” What? And then He said, “No man has greater love than he who lays his life down for his friends.  You are my friends.”  What He was saying is that that kind of love is a suffering kind of love.  That kind of love will die for another. This is the love that He wants to pour into us, because that is the love that endures all things.  We are to think carefully before we ask Him to fill us with this kind of love.  Count the cost.  We cannot go without this love and need it desperately in the time to come.

There is a paradox within the faith that is divine, speaking to our differences.  This is why Paul mentions this in Ephesians 2 that we are saved by grace through faith so that we should not boast in any works.  This was not so that we can argue whether we are saved by grace or works.  He was pointing out that if it was not for grace extended to us through the Jew’s blindness, we would all be lost.  This is the context.  The context is Jew and Gentile and that as His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, so that we could walk in them, we are to understand what that call is.  Our call is first and foremost to the Jews.  He wants us as Gentiles to know that we are the wild olive branch that was grafted into the natural olive tree.  That we have nothing to boast about and that we can just as easily be cut off.  We have received grace through faith, having mercy upon whom He will have mercy.  Our call is unto the Jews first and then to Samaria.  Some of us might at the same time never come into contact with a Jew, however, there is still a mystery within the paradoxes of life.  There is a mystery in this revelation of Jew and Gentile that displays the manifold wisdom of God through opposites.  The two shall become one.  There cannot be greater opposites than Jew and Gentile.  Neither a greater opposite than between husband and wife, prophet and teacher, black and white, parent and child, different denominations, saved and unsaved, and friend and enemy.  This is the paradox of the faith where in His wisdom He wants to make the two one.  He even refers to this in the fourth chapter of Ephesians after talking about husband and wife, parent and child and slave and master.  He says that we in our differences are all members of his body, of his flesh and of his bones.  He desires to bring them into the fold.


This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the Church.

Why would He choose to do things this way?  Why the friction and the uncomfortability of differences?  It is because we who have been grafted in are not to think highly of ourselves, because we were grafted in by grace through faith.  It is to humble us and keep us in a place of dependence. When all the masks have fallen off and we meet each other in our differences face to face at the mercy seat, it is in that moment that His love transcends all things.  It will then show whether we have a revelation of who He is and His love. We will all be shaken.  Those who think that they have served the Lord for so many years, will be shaken.  

All this made me think of a series that I watched recently that the Spirit brought my attention to.  The series is called “Nevertheless”.  It is about a young girl that falls in love with a young man who is very unfaithful.  He has a tattoo of a butterfly on the back of his neck and kept butterflies as well.  These butterflies represented all the woman he has been with.  He had serious trust issues.  She was constantly confronted with his unfaithfulness, but “nevertheless” she could not deny him.  He was in love with her, but because of his trust issues it took him a long time to confess this to her.  At long last, he released all his butterflies for the one butterfly he was in love with.  Her name happened to mean butterfly as well.  Another movie was about this girl whose mother was very cruel.  She had a butterfly broach.  This girl would take butterflies and tear of their wings.  She was herself a butterfly whose wings have been broken.  And the truth is that we are all worms that have to go through a death cycle in order to become butterflies that expresses His love in color.  When reminded of this series called ‘Nevertheless” the Spirit directed me to something Paul said in Philippians.


21 For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

22 But if I live in the flesh, this is the fruit of my labour: yet what I shall choose I wot not.

23 For I am in a strait betwixt two, having a desire to depart, and to be with Christ; which is far better:

24 NEVERTHELESS, to abide in the flesh is more needful for you.

25 And having this confidence, I know that I shall abide and continue with you all for your furtherance and joy of faith;

Let’s just think a bit about what Paul is saying here with his “nevertheless”.  He is saying even though I long to be in heaven, I know it is better for you if I stay.  What?  His desire between heaven and staying on their behalf is equal, hence why he is saying he is in betwixt two.  He chooses them.  Just like Yeshua chose you and I.  This is not an automatic reaction, but can only come from a basis of the transcendent love of God.  Another “nevertheless” we hear is in the Garden of Gethsemane. 

LUKE 22:42

Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: NEVERTHELESS not my will, but thine, be done.

This “nevertheless” has to become a reality to the Bride.  She has to have such a strong sense of this “nevertheless” that can only come from the basis of having a true understanding and revelation of His love.  A love that is willing to lay its life down.  I woke up the other day, not knowing yet where Father was going with this devotional, at 6:10.  I was prompted to look up the meaning of 610 in the Strong’s concordance.  Strong’s 610 means: “judicial sentence, an answer.  A judicial decision.  On asking myself whether I should come out safe from mortal peril, I answered, I must die.”  There is only one scripture reference to this number.


For we would not, brethren, have you ignorant of our trouble which came to us in Asia, that we were pressed out of measure, above strength, insomuch that we despaired even of life:

But we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God which raiseth the dead:

Paul is here saying that he has already sentenced himself to imprisonment and death.  We all have a decision to make.  We all have to reach a place of “nevertheless”.  We all have to seek His face and count the cost.  He has to work that “nevertheless” in us.  There is a difference between sentencing yourself to imprisonment or death versus being forced into a prison or death.  Unless we sentence ourselves to imprisonment or death, how will we be able to endure?  I expect nothing else in my life that I will be imprisoned.  I am expecting it.  We have to be willing to lay our lives down.  We cannot do this from out of ourselves.  It will not be because we muster up the courage by our will to do so, because our will, will always rebel against the will of God.  The flesh will want to save itself.  The flesh will cry out to be saved.  Only that which comes from out of His life, strength and wisdom will endure. 

I think of Judas and how he was Yeshua’s friend.  He was not just His disciples, but also His friend.  Yeshua always knew about Judas’ love for money.  Yeshua was betrayed for 30 shekels, which was the going rate for a slave at that time.  It broke my heart when I thought about it.  They walked together, laughed together, slept together and saw great miracles together.  How often did Yeshua not spend alone time with Judah, knowing what is in his heart.  He never stopped loving him and even washed his feet.  His friend that He knew would betray Him.  I can only think that when Judas ran away, how it must have broken Yeshua’s heart.  He knew that he would betray Him, and He already sentenced Himself to death, already passed “nevertheless”, but to see His friend go and come back to betray Him with a kiss!  Asking him, “Have you come to betray me with a kiss?”  They will betray us with a kiss.  Our friends and family will betray us with a kiss.  It is not going to be easy.  Unless His love is in us, we will be offended and our love will not be sincere.  Yeshua loved so ultimately. 

In John 6 Yeshua speaks to his disciples mentioning how they are to drink of His blood and eat His flesh.  His followers knew this meant suffering.  In John 6:66, which is the 666 pointing to the number of the Beast or the money system as well, they no longer followed Him.  Yeshua then turned to the twelve, and asked, “Are you also going to leave Me?”  And Peter said, “Lord, where can we go?  Only You have the words of life!”  Money will cause people to no longer follow Him.  In fact, John the Baptist, living from locust and honey in the desert is a type and shadow of the workers in the field who will testify of the Light.  Find it not strange that lately meat is slowly but surely being substituted with locusts or crickets.  There is a great prophetic significance in this as we are nearing the time of the great harvest to come. 

We are witnesses of the Light, just as John the Baptist was a witness to the Light.  The word witness means martyr.  A martyr is not just someone who dies, but one who has already decided that spreading the gospel is worth dying for.  They have passed “nevertheless”.  John the Baptist was beheaded, which is what will happen to the Church, because they will confront the powers that be and bring many to salvation.  A few years ago, someone who has turned away from me, told me that she thinks I have a martyr complex.  She meant it as an insult, because she considered the price I am willing to pay to walk this narrow road was too extreme.  That I wished to suffer and that He would not ask of me the things I said He does.  Where she meant it as an insult, I took it as the greatest compliment someone could ever give me.  Just after the Acts outpouring of the Holy Spirit, those who gave their lives to the Lord, knew that they were at the same time signing their name of the dotted line of their own death certificate.  Not so today.  No, today we hear that when you are saved you can get “this and this”.  Then they knew that when you get saved everybody has all things in common.  Nothing you own is yours anymore, because we need to survive and by the way, the probability of you dying a cruel death is very high.  But, you can rejoice.  They considered it a privilege.


29 For unto you it IS GIVEN in the behalf of Christ, not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for his sake;

Richard Wurmbrandt quotes:

One of our workers in the Underground Church was a young girl.  The communist police discovered that she secretly spread the Gospel and taught children about Christ.  They decided to arrest her.  But to make the arrest as agonizing and painful as they could, they decided to delay her arrest a few weeks, until the day she was to be married.  On her wedding day, the girl was dressed as a bride-the most wonderful joyous day in a girl’s life.  Suddenly, the door burst open and the secret police rushed in.  When the Bride saw the secret police, she held out her arms toward them to be handcuffed. They roughly put the manacles on her wrists.  She looked toward her beloved, then kissed the chains and said, “I thank my Heavenly Bridegroom for this jewel He has presented to me on my marriage day.  I thank Him that I am worthy to suffer for Him.  She was dragged off with weeping Christians and a weeping bridegroom left behind.  They knew what happens to young Christian girls in the hands of Communist guards.  Her bridegroom faithfully waited for her.  After five years she was released, a destroyed, broken woman, looking thirty years older.  She said it was the least she could do for her Christ.  Such beautiful Christians are in the Underground Church.  God will judge us not according to how much we endured, but how much we could love.  The Christians who suffered for their faith in prisons could love.  I am a witness that they could love God and men.  One great lesson arose from all the beatings, tortures, and butchery of the communists:  that the spirit is master over the body.  We know about the love of Christ toward the Communist by our own love toward them.  It was in prison that we found the hope of salvation for the Communists.  It was there that we developed a sense of responsibility toward them.  It was in being tortured by them that we learned to love them.  Richard says about those he suffered with for 14 years of imprisonment, “I kiss their chains, as the first Christians kissed the chains of their fellow believers when they were led to be thrown before the wild beasts.”

I finish with a word Father reminded me of when I had my own “nevertheless” moment.


Let Me love through you.  When you surrender and offer your body as a living sacrifice, it will mean sacrifice.  There will be a price to pay, which is to lay your will down so that My will can be done.

In this your mind is renewed to know My good, acceptable and perfect will.  This is why I have given you My Spirit, that you may live by every word that I speak.  Therefore, to lay down your life as a living sacrifice requires you to constantly know My will in every situation.  Your will, will always rebel against Mine.  It has to be laid on the altar every time, in every situation.  In that moment, you will hear.  In that moment, you will understand.  In that moment when you submit, I can love through you.  It is My love that touches hearts.  My hands, My feet, My mouth…all is Mine.  Therefore, as My body you have to subject yourself to My will as the human body is to the mind.

Instructions have always come from your mind.  But, now you have the mind of Christ, My mind.  How will you know unless you quiet the distractions, the emotions and all the demands of your own will?  Therefore, do not think this comes overnight.  Practice makes perfect.  Over and over you teach your mind to go into the path I lead you.

Have I not said that I will instruct and teach you in the way you should go?  Surely all My ways are peace.  Therefore, walk circumspectly as a soldier at all times, ready to listen, to submit and obey.  Trust Me to guide you in every situation that I bring upon your path to make a way for you.

Come each time to learn of Me for I am meek and humble.  This is not about you.  This is about a vessel given over to Me to be used by Me so that I can love the lost, the broken and the poor.  Do you realize how much I want to touch them?  To heal them like I did with the washing of the feet?  I said, “Father, a body thou has prepared for Me to do Thy will.” 

Your body is there to do My will, not yours.

So, let Me have full play through your hands, feet and mouth. 

Seek to do My will.


Monday, November 14, 2022




In September 2020 I was woken up by the Spirit in the middle of the night to write down a word.  Two years have passed since then and the word has now come into fulfillment.  This proves to us that not every word He gives is a “now” word.  That morning He told me that I will be going into a season where I will have to trust Him inextricably and that He will guide me with His eye.  Not with His mouth, but His eye.  What He meant by guiding me with His eye, was to let me understand that He will open my eyes to see as He sees. 

He also told me that the most important thing that will carry me through this season will be His love.  He then proceeded to tell me that He will pour out His love on me.  Asking me, “Will it be as you expect?  No.  For you cannot put Me in a box.” 

That had me wondering what He meant by the fact that it will not be as I expect.  Well, probably about two months now He has been doing it in two ways I really did not expect.  I would have moments where He would pour His love out on me where my body was unable to handle it.  Without going into the details, it was for the purpose of enlarging my heart, bringing me into a greater capacity in the Spirit to be able to deal with this season He has me now in.  Remember, love endures all things.  He then started by bringing secular love songs on my path.  I do not listen to secular music, only Christian music.  I am aware of the music and entertainment predictive programming and occult ties. However, my spirit was stirred by the songs, which He then would confirm the lyrics in various ways that indeed it is Him speaking to me through them.   Song after song would come my way in which He expressed His love to me.  The religious spirit in me wanted to resist this at first, but afterwards I could no longer deny that it was Him.  Then He started to speak to me through movies.  Once again, when I watched a movie it would be very innocent and nothing gory or worldly in nature.  Always careful to keep myself pure and undefiled.  I could also not watch anything related to horror, as I would engross myself with my whole being in what I watched.  I just could not stomach it.  However, I could not deny how clearly He was speaking to me.  The way He confirmed different things to me through these movies is statistically impossible.  When this started I questioned my motives and sought His face regarding this season as I did not want to sin against Him.  And to top it off, the movies were something I would NEVER watch.  Horror movies with zombies and psychopaths, all very dark and murderous. Others were romances, historical and so on.  Each time I was dumbfounded by the confirmations that were just simply undeniable.  Each time a very clear word spoken to me and His heart revealed for His children for the time to come.  Another example of something contrary to His Word, is that He showed me that in the time to come He would protect me as a wolf.  What?  Nowhere in scripture is a wolf portrayed as good.  I can write pages full of confirmations of how He told me over and over again, that as an Alpha wolf over His pack, so He would guard me. 

Before I go on, this devotional is not an excuse to go watch whatever you want and expose yourself to this world and the lusts of this world.   This is a season that He brought me into during which He literally divinely protected me from any defilement.  In fact, I remember a vision I had not so long ago where I walked through a pack of lions as they made way for me to pass.  They could not touch me.  He is able to close the mouths of lions and they come in different forms with different faces.  This is much like David said, “Thou has set a table for me in the presence of my enemies.” Although it may seem from a logical standpoint that I was feasting from the tables of devils, I was in fact feasting from His table.  It all depended on how I perceived or discerned.  The important factor is to be in His perfect will.  Only in His perfect will is safety from all harm.  Other examples of how contrary He can appear even to His own word is the fact that He used ravens that are unclean birds to feed Elijah.  He also used Nebuchadnezzar and Cyrus to do His will.  Furthermore, Yeshua told His disciples that they are to do all the Pharisees do, but at the same time called them whitewashed tombs.  The Pharisees accused Yeshua from breaking the Sabbath by healing someone and His disciples picking corn in the field on this holy day.    He used unclean animals in a vision to speak to Peter about how the Gentiles are included in the salvation plan and pardoned the adulterous woman who clearly had to be stoned according to the law.  Surely He broke the law, right?  And yet, we know He was without sin.  What was the unspoken message to us in how He lived?  He most definitely rattled some cages.

At the same time my question was, “Why did He choose such controversial means to pour out His love on me and to give me understanding of His ways through something that is clearly in opposition to His character, holiness and His word?  Why was He putting me in such a compromising position?  Does this not disqualify me to speak on His behalf?  Does this not speak against my testimony and witness?  Surely it does, but He had a purpose with it that was unbeknownst to me.”

The latest is an owl.  In one week He brought the issue of an owl eight times in various ways to me.  One of them is that my subscribers on YouTube reached 255 and in the Strong’s Concordance, 255 means an owl.  There was no denying it.  Needless to say, He had my attention. What was He trying to say?  I knew that it had to do with vision, the ability to see. Naturally I started looking up some characteristics about owls.  Once I started exploring, I could see why He was so controversial in His dealings with me.  I understood once again that I myself in a way am a message.  Remember, we are living epistles that others read, not just by what we say, but especially by how we live.  To walk as He walked, which is by the Spirit.  That means that when we are surrendered to Him, He can use us in whatever way He wants, even if it seems contrary to His Word.  This is not a license to sin, but stresses the importance of being guided by the Spirit at all times versus our own understanding and knowledge.

Owls are synonymous with a bad omen or bad luck.  In scripture they are linked to the wilderness and barrenness.  Although seen by most as a bad omen, they represent wisdom.  We say, “As wise as an owl”.  They have excellent hearing abilities and are mostly known for their keen eyesight.  They can see in the day time, but are especially known for their ability to see in the dark.  Part of what Father recently came to reveal to me is that He would reveal the plans of the enemy, what they do in the dark.  Their secrets and plans that are behind closed doors, so to speak.  To know what they do in the dark, that which is vailed, one has to have the ability to see or discern in the dark. The owl’s eyes are fixed with the ability of turning its neck 270 degrees.  The owl cannot even roll his eyes or look sideways.  This is the reason why they need the ability of the neck to turn.  We are told to fix our eyes on Him.  They also have 3D vision, which means that they can perceive depth, width and height. This immediately reminded of Paul praying that we would comprehend the depth, width, length and height of the love of God in Ephesians 3.  Furthermore, most birds have their eyes on the side of their head, not so with the owl.  Their eyes are fixed into sockets or tubes that are called rods.  They have binocular vision, which means that they see an object with both eyes at the same time.  This provides them with acute depth perception and allows them to gauge distance to perfectly time their attacks.  Where other birds have a greater peripheral vision, owls have acute depth perception.  This makes me think of discernment.  The ability to zoom into what really matters without being distracted by your surroundings or noises, represented by the peripheral vision.  They can “zoom” into a prey. 

They also have three eyelids.  The third eyelid is translucent and protects the eyes from debris.  This translucent eyelid made me think of where Paul prays that the “vail” of our understanding, which is the ability to discern or perceive, may be enlightened.  Owls also see limited color and mostly in monochrome.  Their eyes reflect light and are super light sensitive. 

What caught my attention was the issue of light versus darkness.   We can either see things in black and white or in color.  I prefer color.  A few years ago, Father told me that I now see in monochrome, but that I will see in color.  He kept bringing videos on my path about people that are colorblind that received colorblindness glasses.  Their joy of seeing color at last was very contagious.  This then comes back to the word given to me that I mention right at the beginning, that He will guide me with His eye.  I will see as He sees.  I never truly understood exactly what He meant, but praise God, I do now.  In the color white you find the whole of the spectrum of colors.  Hence, when you look through the eyes of love, you see color and not just in white and black, even whilst walking right through the darkness.  It is not that you do not see the darkness, it is that you perceive and discern through the eyes of love.  There is a depth of understanding and wisdom that transcends just the facts.  The facts being that which is obvious or logical.   You remain untouched, because you are in Him, who is love.  And, you are in Him to the degree that you are not divided within yourself.  Meaning to the degree that you are sanctified body, soul and spirit.  When Father told me almost 34 years ago that I will paint the color of His love, I did not know that it would not just be through painting, but through words as well, as a picture is worth a thousand words.  Meaning, the ability to express His heart creates a picture. 

I find it very interesting that Paul who emphasized love right through scripture, even being the writer of 1 Corinthians 13, was given to be taken up in the spirit to be shown revelations that were not lawful to utter.  Again, we find John, called the disciple that Yeshua loved, who was often found with his head on Yeshua’s bosom, to have received the revelations from Yeshua, to write the book of Revelation.  We also read 1 John to 3 John, how he clearly emphasizes love.  This speaks of the manner of men they were whom He could entrust with these visions and experiences.  There is a connection between having an experiential understanding and apprehension of His love that opens our eyes to see as He sees.  Remember, Paul was very familiar with the law, even saying that he was the Pharisee of Pharisees.  But, when Yeshua had His way with Paul, he was all about how love was the fulfillment of the law.  He saw then as Yeshua saw.  Having a deep and experiential understanding of God’s love is essential for the time to come in how we will discern and endure.  But also, having a heart free from prejudice, traditions, guile and truly living under grace, is to look at life “unvailed’.  You truly start to see in His light.  We will need to discern not just between white and black, but see in color, just as He did. 

His love truly liberates us in all spheres of life when we walk in the light of the Spirit, by every word that He speaks.  We do not then see in the context of black and white, but all things we see through His eyes, which is in color.  In Him is no darkness, no shadow of turning…HE IS LIGHT and that light is very colorful.  I suspect it is the rainbow that surrounds the throne above.

John also spoke about light and mentions John the Baptist who was not the light, but pointed to Him who is the Light of the world in the first chapter of the book of John.  Remember, the world is in darkness, but He who is the light is the Way to the Father in this darkness.  He is the fulfillment of the law through love.  Love is the fulfillment of the law.  We also know that the Word of God is a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path.  The entrance of His Word gives light and understanding to the simple.  This speaks of revelation and using the Word of God as our guidance how to live.  The one is instructions, which points to the letter and the other is the Spirit of the law, which speaks of a Person, Yeshua.  The word or His law, is a schoolmaster that reveals our heart to us.  It acts as a mirror to reflect back to us what we otherwise would have missed.  This reminds me of the owl’s ability to reflect light. 

In 1 John 2: 10, John says the following…

1 JOHN 2

Again, a new commandment I write unto you, which thing is true in him and in you: because the darkness is past, and the true light now shineth.

He that saith he is in the light, and hateth his brother, is in darkness even until now.

10 He that loveth his brother abideth in the light, and there is none occasion of stumbling in him.

11 But he that hateth his brother is in darkness, and walketh in darkness, and knoweth not whither he goeth, because that darkness hath blinded his eyes.

Clearly we can see from the context of this chapter that love is the means by which we walk in the light in this dark world.  When we walk in light, we walk in His love.  Not knowledge, not understanding, not even revelation.  Through the glasses of love is how we are to look at all things in order to discern and see as He does. This has both to do with understanding and revelation and with truly knowing Him who is love.  In one of the series I just finished watching, there is this lawyer that has a great range of glasses that he wears all the time.  A lawyer has to judge or discern, and the glasses he wears will determine his judgment.  There is a clear connection between love and light and being able to discern as we ought to.  With this I would like to emphasize that what is essential is to have on one side of the scale a clear understanding of the enemy’s plans and devices, and on the other side of the scale, His love.  We are to be as cunning as snakes and gentile as doves at the same time.  When there is an imbalance, a greater emphasis on the facts, our hearts will be hardened and our testimony will suffer.  We might bring understanding to those who are deceived, but not necessarily draw them unto Him.  On the other hand, if we are all “mushy” and just speak from a place of love and prefer our heads in the sand, then you are asking for trouble.  The key is to have balance.   Some people are professors in exposing the enemy and knowing the facts about the deception out there.  However, they are lacking in their understanding of His ways and who He is.  The letter is concrete, but the Spirit is mystical.  To walk by faith requires not to depend on that which is concrete, but that which you cannot see.  Living by every word that He speaks.  They will know us by our fruit, not just our facts.  Why is this important?  We need to understand that when we are sent out to be light, as the John the Baptist Company, or Elijah Company, that, that entails both the knowledge and understanding of deception, which is to discern, and that that discernment has to come from our vital union with Him, who is love.  They both represent light.  Both these qualities are of utmost importance and the one affects the other.  They cannot and MUST NOT be separated.   I speak this from out of experience where I was very involved in exposing the works of darkness years ago.  During that time I did not became aware of the gradual hardness of heart that started to permeate me even whilst fighting for the truth.  I thought that because I knew the truth that I was in His perfect will to expose all the deception and right the wrongs that people believed, having the attitude of being willing to be persecuted for the truth.  That sounds very self-sacrificing and noble, but the truth is that I was unware how critical it was to be guided by the Spirit and not by facts or truths alone.  Indeed a very thin line.  This requires an intuitiveness that has been developed through the years where you pick up the slightest nuances or clues in the spirit, which to others may seem insignificant or completely overlooked.  They are still vailed in their understanding of how the Spirit works.  This is very much the case with the Pharisees, having the Light, Yeshua, standing right in front of them and not being able to discern, even though they knew the truth and practiced the law.  He who is the fulfillment of the Law, the Truth, was standing right in front of them.  This is why Yeshua told His disciples everything the Pharisees do they too must do, but that their righteousness had to exceed the righteousness of the Pharisees.  What did He mean by this?  He was simply saying, “Obey My commandments, but remember, love is the fulfillment of the law.”  Faith worketh by love.  He was most definitely not telling them to add the 613 mosaic laws to the already 10 commandments.  There is no rest in living by the flesh.   He made it perfectly clear to us that there are 2 commandments, the new commandments that fulfills the 10 commandments.  In fulfilling the 2, the 10 are kept. 

Coming back to the reason why He drew my attention to the owl, is that He wanted to point out that there are many in the Body of Christ that still see in monochrome, that is to say in white and black, and not in color.  The question was asked why He was exposing me and speaking to me through that which was clearly in complete opposition to His holiness and walking undefiled.  For some this may have looked as if I was compromising and walking in deception.  After all, they could throw a truckload of scriptures at me to show me the error of my ways.  However, He was showing me the liberty of love and living by the Spirit.  I suppose He wanted to rattle some cages as He did with the Pharisees as well.  What that liberty in His love means is that you are not dictated and controlled by truths, but by the Spirit.  The Spirit guides us in all truth.  You are not controlled by “do’s and don’ts”.  This does not mean that truths are irrelevant, it simply means it does not dictate your life.  So that just like Him you are able to heal on the Sabbath, understand why He would use a “raven” to feed you or in my case, use “worldly” things to bring a message across.  You are not then under condemnation, but under grace by walking after the Spirit.  It is NOT a liberty to sin, but a liberty that frees you from seeing and discerning only from the basis of facts, white and black.  In my devotional reading of Oswald Chambers’ My Utmost for His Highest, November 12, it says…

What difference has my salvation and sanctification made?  For instance, can I stand in the light of 1 Corinthians 13, or do I squirm and evade the issue?  True salvation, worked out in me by the Holy Spirit, frees me completely.  And as long as I “walk in the light as He is in the light” ( 1Jonn 1: 7), God sees nothing to rebuke because His life is working itself into every detailed part of my being, not on the conscious level, but even deeper than my consciousness.”

The issue at hand is His life in us.  Paul said, “I no longer live, but the life that I live, I live by the faith of the Son of God.”  It is Him living through us.  In John 1: 5 John says that the light shineth in darkness and the darkness could not comprehend the light.  This comprehend means to take hold of, to make one’s own, to seize upon or take possession of.  Darkness cannot take hold or take possession of light.  This is why I could watch all those movies and not once felt I needed to ask for the Blood of Yeshua to protect me, wash me clean or think that I needed to ask for forgiveness in watching it.  Once again, please understand that He was showing me what it truly means to walk in the light where darkness cannot comprehend you.  Walking in His love and the protection of being in Him.  The darkness will not comprehend or take hold of me.  I was at liberty in His love.  By no means do I wish to continue to watch these horrid movies and eagerly await this season to be over.  The point is that if we do not discern by the Spirit and walk in love, which is the soil of that discernment, we are bound to condemn that which look from a logical standpoint as deception or wrong, and lean on our own understanding, thinking we are correct in our estimation of what we see with our eyes.  We then forfeit seeing what He sees through His eyes.  You may be doctrinally correct, but in error because you are not discerning by the Spirit.  Paul in Galatians speaks to them about circumcision as there were some that wanted to revert back to the law and there was disunity amongst them because of it.  The hard and fast rules of the law.


Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.

For in Jesus Christ neither circumcision availeth anything, nor uncircumcision; but faith which worketh by love.

14 For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this; Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

15 But if ye bite and devour one another, take heed that ye be not consumed one of another.

16 This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.

17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

18 But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.

Paul always placed a very high emphasis on the Church to comprehend the love of God in all his epistles.  He had a very clear understanding and experiential knowledge of the love of God and how it transcends our understanding, wisdom and knowledge.  God is love and to know God is to walk in His love, to discern and understand from the basis of who God is by a personal intimate relationship, where truths become subject to The Truth.

EPHESIANS 3: 17 – 19

17 That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,

18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;

19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.

Note, that He prays that we will comprehend this love, that is to say take hold of it.  Once again, I cannot over emphasize the importance of love in the time to come, because it will be the very light by which we walk and discern, and most importantly endure to the end.  I am not condoning watching any of these movies etc. I am merely showing through a practical example that to walk in the fullness of His love, having comprehended the depth, width, height and length, is the equivalent to be invincible as He was.  Can you believe this?  This is why Yeshua could say to Pontius Pilot that he has no authority over Him except that which the Father gives him.  In other words, “You cannot touch me unless My Father allows it.”  In fact, this reminds me of a number He had me look up this morning.  I woke up at 5:17 and looked up the number in the Strong’s Concordance.  It means both “mother” and “invincible”.  Walking through the lions as they make way for me in my dream.  Whilst watching all these things, the enemy could not touch me.  Not because of me.  I am nothing.  However, I am in Him.  And if there is anything in our lives that through sin or wrong attitudes opens a door, you can know that the enemy will find the gap to slip in and defile.  However, once your eyes are open, the vail has been lifted, you will see everything as He sees it.  You will be liberated from seeing the way you have always seen, which is in monochrome.  Nothing will be insignificant and you will realize that it is never about what is white or black or right or wrong.  Everything is about how He sees it.  Someone can say something scripturally correct, but the spirit of the speaking may be in error.  Is it then true?  Are you able to discern the spirit?  Or someone can say something scripturally incorrect, but are you able to discern their heart, their disposition, so that you can correct them in love or even a strong rebuke, should you even speak?  Your own heart will determine how you discern, because out of the heart flows the issues of life.  In our heart we find filters (glasses), like pain, past traumas, prejudice, opinions and traditions that influences how we see or discern.  These all have to be sanctified and placed on the altar.  They distort or vail our understanding, which causes us to then only see in part.  They become hard and fast rules we live by without even being aware of it.  This is why Paul said in 1 Corinthians 13


For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.

10 But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.

11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

Everything will fall away, and there will only remain three things, hope, faith and love.  Love being the greatest.  We see dimly, we discern or understand dimly because we have not yet been made perfect in love.  We still think like a child that demands what is right or pointing out what is wrong.  This is not to say that we are to not expose the works of darkness, but how we address it and if we should address it should be under the guidance of the Spirit at all times.  We will know even as we are known by Him, even the hearts of men.  Moses was vailed and the Israelites could not handle the light that shone on his face.  They could handle the law, the letter on the stone tablets, but not the glory of the law written on Moses’ face.  Now the Jews are vailed and those who are the light sent out into this world will be His witnesses to be the full expression of His glory, to shine as light in the darkness, and the darkness will not comprehend that light.  It is the glory of God, the full expression of who He is, the fulfillment of the law by love that will cause them to say, “What must I do to be saved?” 


Who also hath made us able ministers of the new testament; not of the letter, but of the spirit: for the letter killeth, but the spirit giveth life.

But if the ministration of death, written and engraven in stones, was glorious, so that the children of Israel could not stedfastly behold the face of Moses for the glory of his countenance; which glory was to be done away:

How shall not the ministration of the spirit be rather glorious?

For if the ministration of condemnation be glory, much more doth the ministration of righteousness exceed in glory.

10 For even that which was made glorious had no glory in this respect, by reason of the glory that excelleth.

11 For if that which is done away was glorious, much more that which remaineth is glorious.

12 Seeing then that we have such hope, we use great plainness of speech:

13 And not as Moses, which put a vail over his face, that the children of Israel could not stedfastly look to the end of that which is abolished:

14 But their minds were blinded: for until this day remaineth the same vail untaken away in the reading of the old testament; which vail is done away in Christ.

17 Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.

18 But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.


The Spirit is light and those who walk in the Spirit walk in His light and His love.  This is the liberation of His love.  This light exposes the works of darkness merely by just being in its presence, as Yeshua did with the Pharisees.  This is also why Paul could boldly state in Romans 8 the following…

ROMANS 8: 38 - 39

38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Now you understand why Romans 8 starts with, There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.  Chapter 7 of Romans specifically addresses the law that is as a husband that have died and the widow is free to marry another.  She would be free to marry grace through faith.  That means that she no longer lives by what is wrong or right, black or white, but the law of love has indeed liberated her.  She is no longer condemned, because she walks in love.  Only by walking in love is she able to fulfill the law through faith.  Sometimes the law can be a calendar, full moon or new moon, His real name, the keeping of the feasts days, 7 or 14 years, pre or post, the earth flat or a globe and the list goes on and on.  They are all facts, but they do not only speak of white and black, but also hard and fast rules, the letter. “Thou shalt not…say it is a globe. Thou shalt not look at this calendar.  Thou shalt not use this name.  Thou shalt not…”  We become married to our ideas and refuse to die to the law they have become unto us and live by the “letter” and not the Spirit.  We refuse to die to what we know beyond a shadow of a doubt is true.  Once again, the focus is not to do away with truth, but to be led by the Spirit.  My point is not to throw the baby with the bath water out.  Once again, facts and love have to be in perfect balance.  In the process what is sacrificed when we hold tenaciously to our truths, is His love.  We puff ourselves up, have a “The Lord has revealed to me” attitude and shun the leper who dare think they know better.  The truth indeed sets us free.  From what?  From the law, so that we may walk in liberty, not after the flesh, but after the Spirit so that when we speak about truths revealed, we speak in the Spirit of love by the Spirit, able to discern accordingly when and how to speak.  We are also then able to discern the spirits.  Your ability to tests the spirits transcends facts.  It zooms in into the heart or spirit behind the speaking as well, because of your vital union with Him in love.  You see as He sees.  He guides you by His Spirit in all wisdom in all things.  We cannot fulfill the law without love, neither can we discern without love. 

There is a certain guidance of the Holy Spirit that is not concrete.  It is mystical in a sense.  Yeshua told Nicodemus in John 3: 8, The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit. It has everything to do with how vitally united you are to Him and have your being in Him. When you reach that point, His seeing becomes yours, His hearing become yours and His speaking becomes yours.  You walk in the knowing that you are one.  We prefer boundaries, hard and concrete facts.  We like a list of “do’s and don’ts” and they surely do have their place.  All children will rebel without boundaries as their foundation.  The law is our schoolmaster after all.  However, the just shall live by faith.  That is to say from every word that proceeds from the mouth of God.  This is foolishness to the world that goes by the creed of “seeing is believing.”  This why we read in 1 John 2: 27 But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him. That unction of the Spirit in you and upon you.  Therefore, what today is permissible, may not be permissible the next day as you are no longer guided by what is wrong or right, but by the Spirit.  You walk not after the dictates of the flesh, which in the context of Romans 8 speaks of the law, but you walk by the Spirit.  In my devotional reading this morning of Oswald Chambers he said…

“Beware of being obsessed with consistency to your own convictions instead of being devoted to God.  If you are a saint and say, “I will never do this or that,” in all probability this will be exactly what God will require of you.  There was never a more inconsistent being on this earth than our Lord, but He was never inconsistent with His Father.  The important consistency in a saint is not to a principle but to the divine life.  It is the divine life that continually makes more and more discoveries about the divine mind.  It is easier to be an excessive fanatic than it is to be consistently faithful, because God causes an amazing humbling of our religious conceit when we are faithful to Him.”


12 Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God.

13 Which things also we speak, not in the words which man's wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.

14 But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.

15 But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man. (No condemnation for those who walk after the Spirit)

16 For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? but we have the mind of Christ.


As children, still immature, we need the law to be a light unto our feet, instructing us how to walk.  We need to know what is wrong and right.  It teaches us moral values and righteousness.  However, they are not to govern us as we mature in Christ, but the Spirit.  We are to go from milk to meat.  From the letter to the Spirit.  This is the difference between milk and meat, whether you truly live by every word He speaks to you.  Yeshua discerned and walked in such a way, saying that what He speaks is what He heard His Father speak and what He does is what He saw His Father do.  He and the Father as one through the Spirit.  Even so are we to walk as He walked.  Isaiah tells us this…

ISAIAH 11: 3 – 5

And the spirit of the Lord shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord;

And shall make him of quick understanding in the fear of the Lord: and he shall not judge after the sight of his eyes, neither reprove after the hearing of his ears:

But with righteousness shall he judge the poor, and reprove with equity for the meek of the earth: and he shall smite the earth: with the rod of his mouth, and with the breath of his lips shall he slay the wicked.

In other words, He will discern by the Spirit that rests upon Him.  So, we too are called to discern by His Spirit by abiding in His Word and in His love.  However, when we still hold fast to our facts, however true they may be, we can easily be more devoted to truths than to THE TRUTH and be outside of His perfect will because we insist on them and pointing the error of other’s ways.


12 I have yet many things to say unto you, but ye cannot bear them now.

13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.


1And I, brethren, could not speak unto you as unto spiritual, but as unto carnal, even as unto babes in Christ.

I have fed you with milk, and not with meat: for hitherto ye were not able to bear it, neither yet now are ye able.

For ye are yet carnal: for whereas there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions, are ye not carnal, and walk as men?

I pray you understand that our love must grow in discernment and understanding of who He is.  In the same way our discernment grows in His love.  Discernment is more than just right or wrong.  Not only that, but we can do nothing.  We can have the facts or truths and think we discern by addressing an issue, but it will be done in the flesh if not guided by His Spirit.  Only that which is Spirit is Spirit.  He wants to discern through us.  We are only the vessels and by our vital union with Him in intimacy, having died to all our prejudices and traditions, as well as our filters, can He see, hear and speak through us.  Then we see in color because we see as He sees.  We discern not on the basis of facts alone, but discern by the Spirit that has full reign in us.  He is the Truth that will set free those who are bound.  To discern and to see in color is to have an experiential knowledge of His love that transcends our understanding and requires us to live by every word He speaks.  We do not know all things and He alone sees into the depths of the heart of man.  We are to abide and depend on Him with all our heart and lean not on our own understanding, no matter how true it may be.  We are to be willing that He takes us wheresoever He wishes and to teach us in any way He pleases.   We will be liberated by His love and not walk under condemnation.  We will see through the eyes of love and no longer in monochrome. 


And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand ALL mysteries, and ALL knowledge; and though I have ALL faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity,

I am nothing.

It does not matter how much you know, it matters how much you love.  Prophecy, understanding mysteries, having all knowledge and faith, all of it is subject to His love.  When you walk in love, you will be liberated from the law, in order to fulfil the law by the Spirit.  This is a mystery.  Let Him who have ears, hear what the Spirit of God is saying to His Church.

I end this devotional with a word I received from Father on the 30th September 2021.


Abide in Me, in My word and in My love by keeping My commandments and your joy will be full.  Even in persecution you must know that My Spirit will guide you into all truth.  This truth will always separate you from this world.

This is so that you may be one, undivided and that I may dwell in you and you may know that we are one.  You are one with Me and with My Father.

Therefore, do not expect the world to like you or even your Christian brothers and sisters.  Your separated life is an offence to them, because of their compromise.  Expect this and know that there are others going through the same.  The servant is not greater than his master.  I went through it because I was separated, sanctified.  I am the Truth.  Know that to you I send My Comforter.  He will comfort you and He will speak to you My words.  I will never leave you alone.

Howbeit, when he, the Spirit of Truth is come, He will guide you into all truth, for He shall not speak of Himself, but whatsoever He shall hear, that shall He speak and He will show you things to come.  He shall glorify Me, for He shall receive of Mine, and shall show it unto you.

All things that the Father have are Mine.  Therefore said I, He shall take of Mine and shall show it unto you.

Scripture reference – John 16