Saturday, May 7, 2022



Father has placed this devotional upon my heart, and I believe it is a word for the Bride in this particular time that we find ourselves in.  I have of late realized that He is really calling us to a greater devotion in time spent with Him.  To come and draw from Him so that in the end, when He sends us out, we will be so full of the oil that I spoke about in the previous devotional.  I do believe that Father is taking the Bride into a new season.  With every new season He takes us, He has already prepared us for.  There is a transition that needs to take place and He has prepared us for this new season.  Now we need to go into that new season.  What does it require?  Firstly, a new season usually means greater responsibility, greater authority and greater battle.  A new season requires change and most importantly, a new season requires death.

Before we can go into the next season, we have to say goodbye to the other.   With some of the border lines you can place your one foot in the one city and the other foot in the other city at the same time.  But there has to be a full commitment from our side.  There has to be something that we lay down in order to go to the next season.  Maybe you might be asking whether this is really so important considering the time we are in?  Is there actually time for new seasons?  Father is outside of time.  He knows exactly what He wants to do in the time that is left.  Because the time is limited, we need to understand that we have to put our foot on the accelerator.  We need to change our disposition and set our minds to that which He is about in our lives.  To stop playing in the sandbox, come to the party so to speak, and focus. 

I was becoming aware in my spirit that Father was doing something new and I asked Him, “Father, in the time that is left, what is it that you want me to do?  Is there a new season that you want to take me in?  The time is so precious and I do not want to waste it by doing other things when I should be busy with what You are busy with.”

Needless to say, that there is a call unto the Bride to come into a seriousness with regard to the time we are in.  A lot of people are very serious about looking for the signs of His coming, searching scriptures, all those things that are very important.  However, if we have an imbalance with regard to our own spiritual preparation and are more focused on what will happen, then we stand the chance of having a shaky foundation or having cracks in our foundation.  The tribulation can be seen as great waters that will cover the earth.  We know what water can do with those small little cracks in foundations.  We need to deal with those cracks.  Today this is something on His heart and something that He first spoke to me about.  There are things that I need to address and I am laying this before you to take into consideration, especially with the time we find ourselves in. 

In the Word of God, we find different examples of seasonal change and what it requires.  In John 12 Yeshua tells us that unless a corn of wheat falls into the ground and die, it will abide alone.  But when it dies it will bring forth much fruit.  It will no longer abide alone. He was talking about His own death.  We know that we are a part of His harvest, so we ourselves are also corns of wheat that have to die.  Even seasons has to die like a corn of wheat.  A corn of wheat speaks of life, of that which was previously only one, now having to die in the ground and there a full process has to take place before the fruit that He requires can come forth.  We see the example also with Yeshua where He told His disciples that it would be expedient for them that He should leave.  They were very sad about this.  How can He leave them now?  They were all excited about everything He has done and now He wants to leave.  He told them that unless He leaves, He cannot send the Holy Spirit.  Telling them that they would then do greater works.  We understand that there is nothing greater that what Yeshua did, rising from the dead himself.  What is greater than raising the dead and the things that He did?  Well, the greater work is not necessarily the quality of work, but rather the quantity of work.  With many being filled with the Spirit of God, all over this world a greater work can be done by the Spirit of God through His body. This is what He meant.  The one had to leave for the many.  In the same way, we can look at Yeshua being the Son of God, Him dying, bringing forth many Sons and Daughters of God.  You can see even with Stephen when he was stoned, the witnesses laid their garments before a young man, Saul’s feet.  With Stephen’s death or persecution, greater persecution started as a great flood.  It is almost like Stephen’s one death was the precursor to many deaths.  What is a witness?  A witness in the Strong’s Concordance means a martyr.  A witness lays down his life just like that corn of wheat.  Because of the many that have laid down their lives, the great harvest will come, and has come in that time. You can see that there is always a death that happens first.  The same with the two men that walked on the road of Emmaus.  They were very sad when Yeshua met them on the way, talking about this great Prophet, so sad that He died.  They had so much hope in Him.  Let’s read about it in Luke 24.


15And it came to pass, that, while they communed together and reasoned, Jesus himself drew near, and went with them.

16But their eyes were holden that they should not know him.

We know that they did not at that moment perceive who it was that they were speaking to.  He started speaking to them about everything that happened. The Word says, “when night came.”  Night has with it the meaning of darkness and difficult times.  When night came, they asked Him to stay with them.  Then their eyes opened and He spoke to them and they received great understanding of the Word of God.  What we find here is their disappointment with the one who died, but what did that death bring but a greater seeing.  At that time when they were walking with Him, the Word says that their eyes were closed so that they did not know Him.  The “eyes” in the Strong’s Concordance means the “spirit of their mind”.  Their perception, discernment and how they saw, were not yet opened up.  “Holden” in the Strong’s speaks of their eyes literally held closed.  Their understanding closed.  It was purposed that they would not see.  It is not that they did not want to see, they were discussing all these things.  However, they could not see, their eyes were kept closed.  The word “knowing” means to be intimately acquainted with Him, to truly know Him.  What we understand from this new season that Father wants to bring us into, is that He is saying, “I want to bring My Bride into a new season where she will have greater understanding and revelation of who I am, but it will require a death. It will require that she will take note of those very things that I have spoken to her about and to leave behind.”  It can be various things that we are to leave behind.  He wants to get our focus.  He wants us to listen to what He is saying about our spiritual journey thus far.  He wants to take us to a greater understanding.  Focus.  Presently, everything in this world is trying to distract us from the reality of where we are spiritually.  Not just collectively, but personally or individually.  A while back Father gave me a dream wherein, He warned me of 7 distractions.   He wanted me to know that I was going into a season where I should take note of these 7 distractions so that I will not be caught in them.  So that the enemy will not steal from me in this process because of where Father wants to go with me.  Well, I can safely say that I failed in them all.  It so happens to be that I am not perfect!  Who knew?  He took me to task again, drawing my attention and for all intents and purposes, maybe I could have been already where He wanted me to be in a new season.  But because I did not take heed to what He was saying to me, I frustrated His purposes.  We are His workmanship and He said that He will finish the work in us.  We need to focus and hone in.  Going to Him and asking, “Father, what is it that you are busy with me now?”  Do you know what He is busy with you now?  Or are you generalizing?  Or are you so occupied with other things?  Finding out when He is coming or maybe busy with life in general, but not necessarily aware of exactly that which He is placing His finger on.  Why not?  Why are you not about your Father’s business?  Why are you not aware of that very thing that He wants you to let go of?  You need to go ask Him what it is.  Let’s read Isaiah 6 in the context with regard to the explanation given now, regarding to something that first has to die.


1In the year that king Uzziah died I saw also the Lord sitting upon a throne, high and lifted up, and his train filled the temple.

Above it stood the seraphims: each one had six wings; with twain he covered his face, and with twain he covered his feet, and with twain he did fly.

And one cried unto another, and said, Holy, holy, holy, is the Lord of hosts: the whole earth is full of his glory.

And the posts of the door moved at the voice of him that cried, and the house was filled with smoke.

Then said I, Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts.

Then flew one of the seraphims unto me, having a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with the tongs from off the altar:

And he laid it upon my mouth, and said, Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged.

Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.


Here you can see the progression.  Firstly, King Uzziah dies.  Then, Isaiah comes into the presence of the Lord, there where even the doorposts are shaking with His voice and he is trembling in fear before the Lord God.  It is then that he becomes intimately aware of his own frailty and his unclean lips.  Out of the abundance of our heart we speak.  The unclean lips are indicative of an unclean heart, just like unclean hands are indicative of an unclean heart.  Out of the heart flows the issues of life, everything, what we speak and what we do is related to our heart.  Here Isaiah is becoming very much aware of his own frailty and sinful nature.  Out of the knowledge of the greatest, glory and fear of God that he was exposed to, also his own weakness and sin, the Lord says then, “Who can I send?”  It is then with eyes opened up that Isaiah can say, “Lord, send me.”  We are talking about a progression that is happening here.  This is why the Lord needs for us to understand that our own Uzziah needs to die first.  There is something that needs to die in order to come into that place of seeing.  Seeing who the Lord God is and who we are in ourselves.  Why?  So that He can send us out.  The whole purpose is that He wants to send us out.  Can that sending happen unless we have come into that place of seeing?  This is what we need to focus on most importantly.  Are we not preparing ourselves for the time to come?  Should we not be earnest with the little time that is left to seek Him with everything in that place, so that He may reveal Himself to us?  Should we not earnestly seek to lay down everything just so that we can have the more that He has in store?  Father has promised me that He has more in store for me and that He wants to reveal greater things to me. What an honour and blessing, but it will not come cheap and I know that.  I must be willing to count the cost and willing to pay the price.  Are you?  He has no favorites.  He has purposed for everyone something specifically that He has called and prepared you for, but He wants to bring you into the fulness of that.  This is what I sense in my spirit, the fullness that He wants to bring us into.  It is not just a seasonal change, but a seasonal change into fullness.  The greater that He wants to bring us in.  In essence, that which has to die is the lesser for the greater.  He wants to open our eyes to see it for what it really is. 

King Uzziah first had to die before Isaiah could see.

There are also other examples in the Word of God that speaks of this as well.  John the Baptist said to Yeshua, “I must decrease, but You must increase”.  The Aaron priesthood had to die.  In fact, John the Baptist was beheaded.  The Aaronic Priesthood had to make way for the Melchizedek priesthood.  There is always a death before there is life, there is always a death before there is resurrection life.  Yeshua is our example of one Son for many Sons and Daughters.  Also, He said that unless He goes the Holy Spirit could not come and the greater work cannot happen through them.  Just before Yeshua died on the cross, the people’s hope was in Him.  Not long before that they were shouting, “Hosanna! Hosanna!” Waving palm branches and throwing their clothes on the ground and there He came, the humble servant upon a donkey.  They crowned Him as King. They were so excited.  However, they had ulterior motives.  They were more after what He could give than who He truly was.  They wanted the King of Jerusalem.  Because they wanted the King of Jerusalem, they forfeited the King of Kings.  He had to die in order for them to realize afterwards that it is greater than Jerusalem.  Yes, Jerusalem is the hub, but it is greater than Jerusalem.  It is the world.  Everybody is to be saved and included.  When they looked at that cross, what they saw was defeat and death.  A gruesome death.  What they saw at the grave is death.  But a few days later, resurrection life.  A death had to take place in order for this new thing to come forth.  Which will soon come forth, which is a Kingdom of Priests. 

Then we have Stephen and Paul.  Paul’s life changed dramatically once he knew the truth.  We have most of the New Testament writings to thank him for, because of the Pharisee that he was.  When Paul met Yeshua on the road of Damascus, he was struck with blindness.  Just like these two men on the road of Emmaus.  Their eyes were closed and they did not know Him and Paul was struck with blindness.  But like Isaiah he was confronted and he knew that everything that he has ever known, just fell to the ground like clothes.  That Pharisaic garb that he was so proud of, his identity and he was covered in dust. The Word says that Paul was sitting in the dust.  It speaks of his frame of mind.  It was not just a geographical statement, but was speaking of his frame of mind or his disposition.  He was brought low.  It was a death.  For three days he was blind.  The three days speaks of that death in the grave and Cornelius was sent to him.  Cornelius tells Paul how much he will suffer for the Kingdom of God.  If Paul did not have all the understanding of his years of being a Pharisee, those very scriptures engraved in his being, calling himself the Pharisee of Pharisees would be for nothing. But it was foundational to what he would later write in the New Testament.  Because he understood the law, he understood grace.  As Elizabeth Elliot says, “Suffering is not for nothing.”  There is always a death before something great.  What should that tell us?  What Father is saying to us is, “You can expect to go into a death before you come into the fulness that I have in store for you.”  Our problem is that we think that we have gone through too many deaths and that there cannot be anymore left.  Or, we think that we have given all, there cannot be anymore.  You would be wrong.  There is always more.  There is always more in Him and always a cost involved, because grace is not cheap.  It might be free, but it is not cheap. 

What is the personal application to us?  What do we need to ask ourselves?  We need to ask ourselves, “What is there in my life that He is putting His finger on and telling me I need to deal with?”  Only you can answer that.  For me it is certain things and for you other.  What is that which I am still holding on to?  Another question to ask is, “What does it mean to give something to Him?”  I have a statement that I make often.  I call it an “Open hand policy”.  He must be able to take whatever He wants out of your hand and put whatever He wants in your hand.  Like Job, you must be able to say, “Blessed be the Lord God who gives and taketh aways.  Shall we not receive blessing and cursing from the Lord?”  We must be willing to receive whatever season He has in store for us, in order to go to the next season.  You must embrace this season with everything, with your whole being.  Embrace it and focus.  What does it mean to give?  We often hear that we have to give to the Lord.  I have to give my child, my marriage, my friends.  A good example is Abraham and Isaac.  Abraham knew that the Lord was able to raise Isaac from the dead, but he did not know that He would.  There was no guarantee that his son would be raised from the dead.  All he knew is that he was called to obedience.  That obedience is an obedience unto death.  He obeyed completely.  He was not doing it in order to get his son back, he was doing it in obedience.  When we give our child, our friends, our marriage, whatever you know you have to give, that which you have been fighting the Lord God for, the salvation of your children, your marriage, your finances, whatever it is, you must be able to give it to Him with the full understanding that He does not need to give you the outcome that you desire.  That is a very difficult pill to swallow.  Because why are we then praying?  The real question is, “Are we praying His will?”  Prayer is a gift that comes first from Him to us, but we tend to pray first from ourselves to Him.  We have to go and seek His face and find out what is His will in every situation.  We want Him to rather take the difficult circumstances away, be glorified by that, which seems right, but what if His whole purpose for that very thing is to be in our lives and in that be glorified?  Even through the difficulty and it is difficult for us to understand that He wants to do this. 

What are the things that we are still holding back that we are not willing to give to Him?  Your marriage, your friends, your ministry, your talents or your child?  There are many things that we still hold back.  We may have said Lord, “I have given you this.”  Having done the prayer and all the crying, but there is still that emotional attachment or something that desperately clings to it.  Sometimes, what we hold onto is not necessarily the thing in itself, but what it means to us.  If we had to let it go, what are we really letting go of?  Are we letting go of being loved?  Are we letting go of being understood, or our autonomy?  There are so many things that we hold onto that is actually the real meaning behind our struggle to let go.  You need to allow Father to show you what that is.  David said, “All my springs are shut up in thee.”  We hold on to these things because of emotional needs.  To be loved, understood, considered and heard.  He wants to address it.  When the time comes, we will be stripped of all those things.  Who will you be holding onto then?  We need to be realistic of the hour we are in and let go of the things He requires of us.  Our nature is of such, when we have an emotional void, we will look for the closest and fastest thing that we can put in that void to feel better.  Sometimes food equals love or comfort, or a friend that never fails.  Sometimes entertainment through movies fills that void of feeling so desperately alone.  You need that so that you do not feel so alone.  Sometimes friends also serve that purpose.  You do not love your friends just because they are so loveable, but also what they bring to you.  Now, is that really so wrong?  No.  All these things He has given us to beautify our lives.  They are not a means to an end.  They are what makes us our life, that is to bring us closer to Him and not to be used to comfort ourselves with it.  Everything is for His glory.  Whatever takes His place He is jealous over.  He wants to be your comfort.  When you are alone, He might have a purpose with that aloneness.  It might be that He wants you to have a greater understanding of Him.  Everything that we struggle with He identifies with as the Son of Man and as our High Priest.  He wants us to come to Him and say, “Lord, that which I have been holding onto, wanting the love, protection and comfort from that, I have lied to myself.  I am holding onto that because of what it means to me, but I want to hold onto You with my whole heart.”  He is jealous over that and wants to be your spring.  He wants to be your fountain of life that you drink from.  He wants to give that to you in fullness and want His Spirit to flow in fulness through you.  Anything that you hold onto that He cannot at any moment can take away or put back, He wants to deal with.  The lesser has to make way for the greater.  Sometimes what we hold onto may not seem as the lesser to us, but He wants to open our eyes to see.  What are you forfeiting in the process by holding on to the lesser?  You are forfeiting the greater. 

I started the devotional with that we need to understand that there is a death that needs to take place to come into that secret place and receive a greater seeing of Him, a greater knowledge and understanding and revelation.  Paul was praying for the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation in the KNOWLEDGE OF HIM.  There is no greater revelation than the knowledge of Christ.  There is no greater revelation.  It does not matter what we see in the spirit.  Nothing can compare to the knowledge of Christ.  Just like we said earlier that knowledge is an intimate knowing of Him.  There is no greater revelation.  He is wisdom.  He is understanding and He is truth and reality.  We crave reality and so He allows certain things to bring us to that reality.  Christ is that reality. 

I have learned in my walk with the Lord in the years that I have been serving Him, that He goes from the macro to the micro.  From the big and most obvious things that we learn to give up, moving His focus to the very small and seemingly insignificant things.  The big things we are prone to deal with first, but the small and insignificant thing we leave for last.  Things as simple as what time you go to sleep.  He wants your full attention the next morning and He has been speaking to you so many times about it.  You choose what time you want to go sleep, because it is your time.  Even though you have said you have given Him your time.  But the next morning you cannot even think straight and He must work through all that fog to get to you.  He needs you to be willing to lay it down.  Maybe it is the way you eat, or what you eat, or how much you eat.  Maybe it is what you watch.  None of these things are necessarily sinful, but you indulge in them.  We indulge in these things, because life is hard.  Our Christian walk is very difficult and in fact, most of the time it is not easy.  We want to comfort ourselves.  There is a part in us that wants to hold onto that comfort and lift up our feet and breathe.  I am aware that Yeshua did not have that.  He did not have a moment where He could just lift up His feet and breathe, thinking, “I can do this and not consider what Father is requiring of me.”  I thought of the righteous robe that Yeshua bled blood for in order to keep it righteous, to be that spotless sacrifice without blemish.  The Word says that He fought against sin to the point of shedding blood.   The thought that came to me was, “So should we.”  We are supposed to fight against sin to the point of shedding blood.  We are not to make any provision for the flesh.  What area in your life are you making provision for the flesh?  Sometimes we think that it is outright sin, but it is not.  We make provision for the flesh by sparing the flesh as well.  Peter, in John 6, says to Yeshua, “You are the Son of the Living God.” Yeshua says, “Man did not reveal this to you, but the Spirit of God.”  Then later Yeshua tells them of how He will be crucified and Peter runs to Him and says, “Lord, spare yourself.  Let this not be that you will have to go through this.”  And Yeshua addresses him and says, “Satan, get behind me.”  That speaks of the satanic spirit behind sparing ourselves the cross.  We say to ourselves, “Spare yourself, let this not be.  Let this not be that this journey must be so heavy.  Let this not be that this journey must be with suffering.  Let this not be that you have to give up your perfect sleep pattern, or your night time snack, or your coffee.  “Let this not be! Spare yourself from the suffering.”  But this is the lesser that the enemy is using in us to keep us from the greater, from the fulness He wants to bring us in to.  The biggest mistake we can make is to take this lightly.  The biggest mistake is to think that I am taking this too far and “this woman just wants to suffer.”  The biggest mistake you can make is to think that the enemy thinks, “Oh well, I guess I lost to this one. She has given up so much.  Let’s just give it up.  She has given up her child, her husband or marriage, or ministry, she has given up all for God.  We have lost with this one.”  No.  He will then go to the smaller things that are not necessarily sin that can be deemed as insignificant.  It is just like a spider’s web.  One little spider’s web spun is so thin and you can easily walk through it, but many can cause you to struggle, especially over your eyes.  The point is, do not underestimate the small things that Father wants to address.  It could be the very last thing that you need to address before He takes you into that fulness.  He wants to.  We use them as comfy blankets and comfort ourselves with it in the harshness of life.  I do not want to belittle what anybody is going through.  You do not know what I am going through on a daily basis.  I do not dare to belittle anyone’s suffering.  However, I know what He has called me to and that He has called me to great things.  I know there is a price to pay.  You need to ask yourself, “Am I willing to pay that price?  Am I willing to do whatever it takes personally for Him to have His way in me and not use the things of this world to comfort the flesh?”  How many times has He spoken to us where we commit to Him and say, “Yes Lord, I will not do that again.”  We do not do it and we suffer the greater and better.  Isaiah was hopeful with King Uzziah and he died. With that dying came the seeing of God, the way He truly is.  With this devastation and seeing Him the way he truly is, comes the reality of who God is.  Our ministering to people, our talking and living our life, cannot be greater than the revelation that we have of Him.  It cannot be greater.  I cannot ride on the coattails of those I have listened to before or the books I have read.  I have to experience Him for myself.  I cannot speak to you on the basis of everything I have read.  That only forms part of my foundation, but it is not the whole.  It is the knowledge of Him.  If I cannot come and speak to you in the knowledge of how I know Him to be, speaking to you in that reality, I will not live greater than that reality.  When we go out to minister to people who have been devastated, how will we then be able to minister to them if we have not met the God that devastates?  If we are not willing for Him to reveal Himself to us.  Maybe you have prayed that, “Lord, reveal yourself to me” and He has done it in such a way.  Maybe you are asking, “Lord, why are you allowing all these things to happen?”  To which He answers, “Did you not ask of Me patience? Did you not ask of Me understanding and wisdom?”  The means by which He does this is up to Him and not up to us.  This stripping can sometimes be seasonal or in an instance with a simple choice you make.   Paul’s stripping of his Pharisaic garb he had on, speaks of the stripping of a dispensation.  Maybe He is bringing you into a different part of your calling, but you have to strip yourself of the former.  Maybe it is pet sins or indulgences and it can be done in an instance.  He wants you to be willing and to make that choice. 

The issue of God is the issue of reality.  The fullness of Him can only be found in His presence.  It is only in His presence.  He devastates us, which throws us upon the Rock and causes us to seek His face and cry out like Isaiah, “Woe is me! I am undone.  I am a man of unclean lips.”  It is only when we recognize our true selves in His presence and He reveals Himself and come into the intimate knowledge of who He is, that like Isaiah, He can say to us, “Who can I send?” and we can say, “Lord, send me.”  He has to bring you to that place of sending.  It is not because you lift up your hand in class saying, “I know the answer!”  No.  He brings you to that place of sending and He does it through devastation.  That devastation is not just seasonal as in once and for all. He brings it to you over and over again.  Why?  To a greater knowledge and revelation of Him.  Paul is a good example of this with his eyes being opened and being able to reveal the Son of God to us through his many sufferings that he went through.  Through all the flogging, shipwrecks, fasting in going hungry, not being looked after, fighting beasts and running for his life.  Why did the Lord God allow this man, who did so much for the Kingdom, allow him to suffer so much?  He made it clear.  Without any suffering there cannot be any glory.  You want the glory of the Holy Spirit to rest upon you, you will have to be willing to suffer.  This is His way to prepare us for the time to come.  There will be great suffering. 

Our obedience does not determine the outcome.  Sometimes we obey Him because He has asked us to do something. However, we obey Him because we want a determined outcome.   But what if He decides that it is not the outcome He wants, but wishes for you to obey, to trust and obey?  This is what sonship is.  There is a difference between children of God and sons of God.  A son speaks of inheritance.  To come into inheritance there has to be a death.  It speaks of coming into that place where you trust the One who tells you to obey irrespective of the outcome.  The issue is not the outcome, the issue is the obedience.  We are obedient unto death and out of death we are obedient.    A good example of this is Yeshua that stripped Himself.  Let’s read Philippians 2.


Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:

Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:

But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:

And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.

Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name:

10 That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;

11 And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

12 Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.

13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

His good pleasure, not your own.  It was an obedience unto death.  There was a rich young ruler that came to Yeshua and asked Him, “What must I do to be saved?”  Yeshua said, “Do the commandments.”  He told Yeshua that he is doing all the commandments already.  To which Yeshua said, “Yes, but one thing you lack.  Go and sell all that you have and give to the poor.”  The young rich ruler turned around dejected and very sad.  At first when we look at this example it is easy to look at our back account and think, “This is not applicable to me.”  But what was exposed here was a disposition of the heart.  It was not just the fact that a rich man would have difficulty coming into the Kingdom of God, which is true.  It was a disposition of heart of holding on to that very last thing.  Think of it.  This young ruler did all the commandments and was exemplary in his way of life.  However, there was that little bit that he was keeping back.  How many of us can say to the Lord, “Lord, I have given you all this…” Naming it and being proud of our journey and grateful.  Proud of how we have given to the Lord.  But do you know what He sees?  He sees the little leaven that leavens the whole lump.  Think of Samuel.  He was told to give instructions of the Lord to Saul, as the King, that he is to destroy all of the Amalekites when they go to war.  They were to kill husband, wife, child and animals.  I think even the gold was to be destroyed.  Later on, we find that Samuel says, “What is this bleating of sheep that I hear?”  Saul, cunning as he was, thought that it was best to spare the sheep in order to use it for an offering unto the Lord.  What did Samuel say?  He said, “Obedience is better than sacrifice.”  How many of us can name how much we have given to the Lord, but He is looking to us, saying, “But I still hear the bleating of the sheep in your life.”  The disposition of the heart of this young ruler was exposed.  He was still holding on.  When I thought about all this, I thought of how easy it is when we have walked for many years with the Lord, to become comfortable in our Christianity.  It is almost as if we do not carry a cross anymore.  Almost as if it is light.  Yes, His yoke is easy and His burden light, but make no mistake, that is not the cross.  The cross is heavy.  The cross has one purpose and that is to crucify.  That is why Paul said, “I take my cross up daily.”  Do you still take up your cross daily or is it just a saying?  It is important that you ask yourself, “Is my Christianity comfortable?  Is it a comfy blanket and I have grown so comfortable in my Christianity that I no longer offend anyone with the truth or are being persecuted by others?”  Be aware of that comfortability.  I have been reading a book of George MacDonald, called “Knowing the Heart of God” and it is about obedience.  Let’s read a quote he made regarding this rich young ruler.

“The Lord wished to accomplish his purposes by the exercise of the young man’s will.  That would indeed have been a victory for both!  If only he could do as the Lord suggested, the youth would enter into freedom and life, delivered from the bondage of Mammon by the lovely will of the Lord in him, one with his own.  By the putting forth of the divine energy in him, he would escape corruption that is in the world through lust – that is, the desire or pleasure of having.

But the young man would not.  The price was too high, and he walked away sorrowfully.

Was the Lord then premature in his demand on the youth?  Was he not ready for it?  Was it meant only as a test, and not as an actual word of deliverance?  Did he show the child a next step on the stair too high for him to set his foot upon?

I do not believe it.  He gave him the very next lesson in the divine education for which he was ready.  It was possible for him to respond, to give birth, by obedience, to the redeemed and redeeming will, and so be free.  It was time the demand should be made upon him.

Do you say, “But he would not respond; he would not obey.”

Then it was time, I answer, that he should refuse.  It was time he should know what manner of spirit he was of, and the confusions of soul, the sad searchings of heart that must follow.

A time comes to every man and woman when he must obey, or make such refusal –

and know it.”

This is what this refusal is about.  Will you refuse Him again after listening or reading this devotional?  Will you refuse Him again after He has been speaking to you so many times about the same thing over and over again?  How long before it is too late?  How long for the door of opportunity to close?  He has waited patiently and is so long-suffering and He is talking to you now and requiring of you to let go in order to come into His fulness. 

Peter was very brave in saying to the Lord, “Lord, even if it means my own death, I will follow You.  I will never let you go.”  The Lord told him that even in that same night he will hear the rooster crowing.  How many of us say, “Lord, whatever it will take, I will follow you”, but we cannot leave the very things that I have spoken about here in this devotional.  We do not hear the rooster crow in our lives.  Just like Peter was devastated, He has to devastate us to see who we are and who He is.  The same Peter who said, “You are the Son of the Living God”, knowing who he was.  Merely being able to verbalize it does not make you a follower.  Peter said, “I will follow you wherever you go” and the rooster was crowing.  Is the rooster crowing in your life saying, “You call me Lord, Lord, but still, you do not obey Me.”? 

Let’s read a 1 Corinthians 9 where Paul speaks to the extent he was going in buffeting his body. 



24 Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain.

25 And every man that striveth for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible.

26 I therefore so run, not as uncertainly; so fight I, not as one that beateth the air:

27 But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway.

Yeshua is waiting on us to cast it away.  In Hebrews 12 it says that we are to strip off or cast away that very thing that causes us to trip in this race.  Running the race with endurance by looking at the Author and Finisher of our race.  We can almost see the finish line.  We have an understanding that He is waiting at the finish line.  However, He is also in the race with us.  As a child we did long distance running.  It is a battle of the mind.  Your mind can override your body.  Running a race, when someone runs in front of you, you try to stay in his stream line, because he is blocking the wind and you stay in the rhythm of his stride.  You follow them.  Yeshua is the Forerunner, the Author and Finisher of your race.  He is the beginning, everything in between and the finisher of your race.  He is right next to you.  However, we still carry this flesh thing that we still hold on to.  Yes, we have stripped ourselves, clothed in His robe of righteousness, but we are still holding onto the sleeve of the flesh.  We are dragging it behind us, running this race and looking unto Jesus and He is saying, “I am waiting on you to let it go.  I am waiting on you to let that sleeve go.”  No longer hold on to the sleeve of flesh, even after you have stripped yourself from it.  Let it go completely and stop dragging it around.  We have to consider the investment the Lord God has made into our lives.  We are His workmanship.  What do you stand to forfeit if you do not let go?  These small things that I am talking about!  It is almost seems ridiculous.  How can it be so weighty?  But it is.  This is the way the enemy works in our lives.  We do not only stand to forfeit that which He has predestined for our lives.  What He has predestined for our lives, influences the whole realm of eternity.  Eternity does begin when He comes to fetch you and you die.  Eternity starts now and we are living now in eternity.  This life that we live are but a blip in the long circle of eternity.  What you are about now has an eternal consequences.   He uses all things and we need to be serious about it.  Let’s read what John 15 says about obedience.


As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love.

10 If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love.

11 These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full.

The reason why this scripture is so powerful, is because He is saying, “If you keep My commandments you will abide in My love just as I did when I kept My Father’s commandments. Do you want to experience My love?  Do you want a revelation of My Father’s love and My love?  Obey Me.  That is the key.  Obedience is the key to My love.  I will reveal My love to you and you will abide in My love.  You will make your constant abode in My love, a fixed tent in My love.”  Then He says, “Your joy will be full and you know what?  I will give you My joy.” What?  Obedience is the key to God’s joy and the fulness thereof and His love?   That is how important obedience is?  A key this important!  And we struggle with it and resist this love and joy He wants to give us.  How foolish can we be?  Wisdom calls loudly, “Come and hearken unto Me and get understanding.”  But no, we do not listen, preferring our comforts and that which softens the blow of this life.

I am now going to quote Art Katz where he quotes Mohammed Ali training for his last heavy weight championship fight, preparing for this fight.  We are now busy with our own last fight.

“Good intentions are not enough.  The road to hell is paved with good intentions, but God is looking towards people with an utterness towards God that will deny themselves and take up the cross and follow Him.  I am quoting Mohammed Ali.  He was preparing for his final heavy weight championship fight.  You know when that fight was won?  It was not won in the ring.  It was won in the training.  That man drove himself like a fury.  Roadwork that was incessant.  A 36-year-old body. The pain must have been excruciating, but he wanted to win so bad.  This is what he said, “I wanted to stop, but I can’t.  My chest burns, my throat is dry, I feel like I am going to faint.  My body begs me to stop, but I make myself run another mile.  Two more miles, up those hills.  Pain all the time, I’m in pain.  I hurt all over.  I hate it, but I am taking it.  I am making myself to suffer.  I have to suffer.  I know this is my last fight.”  How many of us know that this is our last fight?  That these are the end times and these are the last days and perilous times shall come?  This is our last fight.  How many of us know it as this boxer knew it?  And that he had to suffer, because this is his last fight.  Quoting again, “I know this is my last fight and it is the last time I ever have to do it.  Just a few more weeks of pain and suffering and then to live good all the rest of my life, to always be champion.  To always wear the crown.  To come up to the King of glory and have a crown to lay at His feet.  And not to come bareheaded without anything to show for your whole earthly sojourning.   You mark my words.  I cannot find any scripture to back me up.  See if the crown of glory that a man has to lay before the feet of the Lord in the day that he ascends up to heaven, after his earthly sojourney is finished, whether it is not in the exact proportion to the crown of thorns he was willing to wear here on this earth.  Suffering is the name of the game.”



Grace and peace be multiplied unto you through the knowledge of God, and of Jesus our Lord,

According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:

Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust.

And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge;

And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness;

And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.

For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath forgotten that he was purged from his old sins.

10 Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:

11 For so an entrance shall be ministered unto you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

May this message from the Lord God spur you on to seek Him like never before in the Holy of Holies so that He may show you the sleeve that you are still holding onto in this race.  So that you will strip yourself from it and run this race with endurance and fight against sin to the point of shedding blood, knowing that He is requiring of you to look to Him.  Not to yourself, because He is your strength.


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Monday, May 2, 2022



We are going to continue with the Royal Priesthood, part two. I am very excited and blessed, overwhelmed and all the adjectives that you can think of with regards to this devotional. I know it will be a blessing. It has been a blessing and I think it is a continuous work.

We are going to start with the scripture and that is in exodus 30.  But before I read, I want to recap on what we spoke about in the previous devotional. We basically came to the understanding that we have to choose between which kind of priest we are. The totality of the priesthood that is the life that we live and that priesthood or intercession itself is identification with the Lord God as well as with man.  It is identification with His holiness and it is identification with His suffering; as well as the suffering of man and the frailty of man. We spoke about the responsibility of the priests as mediators, between man and God, to live holy lives so that we may lift up clean hands with pure hearts and be able to pray. Not only prayer, the whole premise of the devotional is that we honour the intercession of Yeshua, not by the death that he died, as our High Priest, but also the life that he lived.  The robe that He shed blood for to be pure and holy.  That righteous robe that He gave us so that He can take our filthy rags on Him.  The whole discussion was the fact that intercession itself is not prayer, but it is the life that you live. We are going to continue from this premise and we are going to trust Father to come and reveal to us the heart of this message to each and every single one of us.  It is a very important message.  It is the crux of everything. Not that the message in itself is important because it came to me.  It is the overall message of the Gospel.

We are going to start reading from exodus 30.



30 And thou shalt anoint Aaron and his ns, and consecrate them, that they may minister unto me in the priest's office.

 31And thou shalt speak unto the children of Israel, saying, This shall be an holy anointing oil unto me throughout your generations.

 32Upon man's flesh shall it not be poured, neither shall ye make any other like it, after the composition of it it is holy, and it shall be holy unto you.

 33Whoever compoundeth any like it, or whoever putteth any of it upon a stranger, shall even be cut off from his people.

 34And the Lord said unto Moses, Take unto thee sweet spices, stacte, and onycha, and galban; these sweet spices with pure frankincense of each shall there be a like weight

 35And thou shalt make it a perfe, a confection after the art of the apothecary, tempered together, pure and holy

 36And thou shalt beat me of it very small, and put of it before the testimony in the tabernacle of the congregation, where I will meet with thee it shall be unto you most holy.

 37And as for the perfe which thou shalt make, ye shall not make to yourselves according to the composition thereof it shall be unto thee holy for the Lord.


This oil in itself, because it is the oil with which the priests were anointed with, speaks of being set apart. We all know that when Samuel went to look for the next king and he found David, that he poured oil over David’s head.  He did not make a little droplet there.  He poured oil over David's head.   This has great significance to a later conversation.  He poured this oil over his head and he anointed him as king. This means he was set apart as priest and obviously king as well.  This oil in itself speaks of the priest or the king's life that is not only set apart, but also poured out.   

 We have the New Testament example of this. Mary breaking an alabaster box and you will remember that she also poured oil on Yeshua's head, our King, and that by an extension when we look at Samuel and what he did, and we look at Mary, we find that the Lord God uses this woman that speaks of His bride, His priestly bride that pours the oil on the King's head. I find that absolutely beautiful.  Now let's read about that account.  It is in Luke, that particular one, because in the different gospels it is described in different ways and there is a reason behind it.  

 Luke 7

 37 And, behold, a woman in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment,

38 And stood at his feet behind him weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe them with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment.

39 Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it, he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner.

40 And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on.

41 There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty.

42 And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most?

43 Simon answered and said, I suppose that he, to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged.

44 And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head.

45 Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet.

46 My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment.

47 Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.

48 And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.

49 And they that sat at meat with him began to say within themselves, Who is this that forgiveth sins also?

50 And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace.


Many of us have seen this alabaster box in different forms and the idea is that it is this small little box that has been broken and poured out, but it is actually quite big. I do not know how many gallons, but it is actually quite big.  It had a specific seal on it and that seal had to be broken and more than likely it was actually speaking of that seal that was broken and not necessarily the box itself.  The seal was then broken and then the oil was poured on Him.  What I saw with Mary, as I was reading this, was worship.  This woman, sitting before her High Priest anointing Him, washed Him with the tears from her eyes that fell on His feet, in a position of worship, adoration, ministering and anointing Him. This alabaster box was very expensive and it was quite a high amount, even in our days if we had to do the same, and it was considered her inheritance or a dowry that speaks once again of this priestly bride.  When she poured that out it was not oil.  It was her life.   We think back on this oil that we just read about now in Exodus 30 and we see it was to be set apart.  Even her hands, everything was full of this oil as she ministered to Him, as she worshipped and adored Him, anointed Him.  It speaks of a whole life that was poured out before Him and onto Him.  It was most holy unto Him and He looked upon those that were standing round about Him, even Judas that you know was highly offended that this money was not used for the poor.  We do not know whether this was truly his disposition or motive, but either way, what Yeshua said was those who have been forgiven much, love much and this woman, having been aware of what a sinner she was, speaks of somebody that had a deep identification with her frailty and her own wicked heart. She knew that she was forgiven much. Yeshua says that when we know this, when we have an understanding of His love, of His forgiveness, when there is a deep identification with our own weakness and His love, the result is a life and a love for Him poured forth and it ministers to Him.  It is most holy to Him.  

What I find interesting is that Yeshua's head and His feet were anointed.  Now the head speaks of His authority and Yeshua is the head of the body.  In Matthew 26 talks about anointing His body and it also talks about anointing the feet.  The body is collectively the body as the church.  It speaks of the whole, it speaks of the head and the wrist, the hands and feet.  The feet itself are those that are sent out as the Word of God says, “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good tidings.”  These feet constantly speak of either taking dominion, the gospel of peace, the shoes of peace that we put on and it speaks of Him who has placed all things under our feet.   It speaks of those that are sent out with the gospel. Those apostles and disciples, the 144 000.  The feet that she is anointing was a prophetic act as well of the anointing that will rest on those that will be sent out.  It stands to reason that she is representing those who will be sent out by her disposition, which is that of being at His feet. We see the same example of Ruth that was at Boaz's feet.  She was waiting for him to put his cloak over her and thereby betrothing himself to her as the Kinsman redeemer. A disposition of being at his feet.  Not standing, but humble and deeply aware of her unworthiness and His amazing grace. 

I had a vision the other day.  It was a very short one.  I was basking in His love and saw my wedding dress in this vision. It was a chiffon dress that “poofed” out.  A very cute dress.  I knew it was a wedding dress made of white chiffon “poofing” out.  Underneath I had my takkies on.  Now if you have read my blog, one of my previous devotionals called, “The Slain”, is with regard to a dream that I had.  I will quickly tell it now, but I was wondering why Father was showing me this particular vision again of me in my wedding dress and my takkies.  The takkies are Nike takkies.  Why is He showing me this? The reason why He showed me was because He wanted me to go back to that particular devotional that I wrote on the blog.  He wanted me to see various things, because He wanted me to address it again. He knows I love puzzles. The whole devotional has a lot of puzzles that He gives me through the week and then it makes a whole picture. In that particular devotional that I wrote, I wrote about this dream that I had.  The dream was where I could see myself from behind also having a wedding dress on and Nike shoes.  I saw the bottom part of the dress and I was walking up something and when I got to the top I turned around and put my hands in the air.  I was all excited, almost, like the Rocky movie of the 80’s where he gets to the top of the stairs and it is the victory dance that he does.  We know that Nike is the Greek goddess “Victory”.  That is why Father chose that I should have Nike shoes on. The hill that I walked on was all skulls.  Father was saying to me that He gave me victory and it refers to how His bride will overcome the enemy.  Just like He was on the cross on the hill of Golgotha, which is “the hill of the skull”, He procured our victory in the same way.  His bride will also procure victory over all the works of the enemy.  All these small skulls were actually representative of the demon hosts and the enemy that He will give us victory over.  

In this devotional I mentioned this lady, a missionary, Darlene Diebler Rose.  I was thinking of her husband, because she was telling in two videos on YouTube, I highly recommend her testimony, how her husband went to New Guinea for the first time to preach the gospel there and that he had to cross mountainous areas that were not prepared for anybody to walk on.  The mountain surface was like shards of glass and it took 18 days for him to get where he needed to get.  When he came back after a period of time to her, he could not walk.  They had to carry him.  She had to take the bandages off his feet.  He contracted a disease that actually ate away the flesh.  As the flesh hardened, she had to rip it off his feet because the disease was still attached to that flesh.  Basically, all the flesh had to be ripped off his feet and then she had to clean it, dress it and anoint it.  Anoint those feet and that is so beautiful. It was a grotesque site, terrible to see.  One of their friends came to visit her and the first time he saw those feet, he ran out, nauseous by the sight of it.  He said to the Lord he cannot even look at his feet and the Lord’s response to him was, “But to Me those feet are beautiful. His feet are beautiful”, and then he quoted, “How beautiful are the feet of those who brings good tidings.”  These feet that his wife anointed, like Mary, speaks of those that will be sent out to bring the gospel.  I was reading about Darlene Diebler Rose and then my eyes went to a quote that I typed in there from Richard Wurmbrand. He also happens to speak about flowers and my mind immediately went to the theme that started to develop, which was that of a rose. Richard Wurmbrand is the founder of The Voice of Martyrs” and he was for 14 years imprisoned. When they used to torture him, one of the methods was to bind him. He had to lean back and his feet was tied up and they would bludgeon his feet until it was a pulp.  He could not walk on his feet and it was deformed.  This is what he wrote…


“A flower if you bruise it under your feet rewards you by giving you its perfume. Likewise, Christians tortured by the communists rewarded their torturers with love. We brought many of our jailers to Christ and we are dominated by one desire to give communists who made us suffer, the best we have, the salvation which comes from our Lord Jesus Christ.”


You can see that the feet, the rose, the perfume and the ointment of the perfume that we read about now in Exodus 30, as well as Yeshua being anointed by Mary, form a picture.  There was spikenard in that anointing oil which is a beautiful fragrance.  The theme here is that of suffering being an ointment unto the Lord God and Darlene's name means darling or “dearling” and her surname is Rose.  It is almost like saying, “My dear rose”.  Father also reminded me of another lady in this time as well whose name is Helen Rosevere.  Another rose and she is a lady that went to the Congo and was brutally raped. She gives her testimony of how she forgave those that raped her. I think they killed her husband as well and the work that the Lord God did through these ladies as His roses is amazing.  Those who suffer and are martyred and who are sent out, they are His roses.  

A rose for us is a symbol of love and therefore it is a symbol of the bride.  The bride that's being sent out.  Let's read in the Song of Solomon.  What better book to read out from concerning love? We are going to start with the first chapter, from verse 1 to 4 and then we skip right over to verse 12.


 1The song of songs, which is Solomon's.

Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth: for thy love is better than wine.

Because of the savour of thy good ointments thy name is as ointment poured forth, therefore do the virgins love thee.

Draw me, we will run after thee: the king hath brought me into his chambers: we will be glad and rejoice in thee, we will remember thy love more than wine: the upright love thee.

12 While the king sitteth at his table, my spikenard sendeth forth the smell thereof.


Immediately when I read this, I think of Psalm 23 where it says, “thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies, my cup runneth over. Thou anointest my head with oil.”  There is that name again and that being set apart with the oil. 


 Thou hast ravished my heart, my sister, my spouse; thou hast ravished my heart with one of thine eyes, with one chain of thy neck.

10 How fair is thy love, my sister, my spouse! how much better is thy love than wine! and the smell of thine ointments than all spices!

11 Thy lips, O my spouse, drop as the honeycomb: honey and milk are under thy tongue; and the smell of thy garments is like the smell of Lebanon.

12 A garden inclosed is my sister, my spouse; a spring shut up, a fountain sealed.


Remember what we said about Mary’s alabaster box that was sealed and that we said that it is her life that is being poured forth.  Her life is that garden and within that garden all these spices grow and those spices come forth because of suffering.  Let me put it this way, the fragrance of that spices comes forth because of suffering and because of her love for him and he tells her that she is a fountain sealed for him.  In other words, whatever is in this fountain is meant for only him.  When Mary realized this, she came and broke the seal of her fountain and poured that oil, her life and her love for him.  She poured it out onto him and this is the call of the bride, to pour her life out on his body and his feet.  Those that will be sent out and to anoint them and to anoint Him.  When we do it to one another, we do it unto Him.  What a blessing to know this. 

 In the Song of Solomon 5 we read,



 My beloved put in his hand by the hole of the door, and my bowels were moved for him.

I rose up to open to my beloved; and my hands dropped with myrrh, and my fingers with sweet smelling myrrh, upon the handles of the lock.


It says he puts in His hand by the hole of the door.  Her heart's door and her bowels were moved.  Her insides, her heart, her spirit moved for Him.  She rises up to open to her beloved and her hands dropped with the myrrh and her fingers with sweet smelling myrrh upon the handles of the lock.  You find that the bride's hands, the way she ministers to Him, His feet and His body, her hands are full of the myrrh, like Mary's hands.  Can you imagine how much oil was on her hands when she ministered to Him? When she poured that oil over his head and on His hands?  We need to understand that He drips with oil. I love it.

Spikenard is actually an Indian plant and it has these roots that look like spikes.  It is a process of crushing and bruising it and the fragrance comes out.  I read a bit about the making of perfume, and without going into too much detail, they usually prefer roses to make perfume.  Just for 15ml of French perfume it takes 660 roses.  In the ancient Egyptian times perfume or scent was considered as the key to everlasting life.  Now Yeshua said, “Whoever is willing to lose his life for my sake, he will receive eternal life.”  You will receive eternal life.  Whosoever is willing to leave mother, father brother, sister and friend for My sake, he is My disciple.  In John 15 He said that no one has greater love than he who is willing to lay his life down for his friends.   It speaks of that everlasting life.  Giving your life to the Lord God is not just about making a decision in front of a pastor or somebody and saying a prayer.  When you give your life to Him, it means you give your life to Him.  Every area of your life has to be poured forth unto Him.  That is what it means to give your life to Him.

A while back, I was praying for my friend and her husband.  Father gave me a vision for them and one of the words Father gave me was that the Lord is going to send an Ananias or Cornelius to him.  And it was very interesting that I prayed that, because you find in Acts 8 of how Ananias was sent to Peter.  Ananias was praying and the Lord told him that he must go to Peter.  At that time Peter was sitting on the roof when he received the vision of the sheet with the unclean animals and the Lord was speaking to Him about the Gentiles that was also included in the Gospel and here comes Ananias, a Gentile and he is there so that Peter could bring the Gospel to him.  You can imagine just how faithful Ananias was to Peter after that.  In the next chapter we find the Lord God speaking to Cornelius.  Cornelius was a man of great faith and prayer.  He was told to go to Paul.  At that stage, everybody was fearful of Paul and he was saying, “Are You sure you have the right man here?” and the Lord told him that he is to go to Paul and tell him how much he must suffer for the Gospel. That is where Cornelius went, praying for Paul and the Lord God opened Paul’s eyes and everything happened from there.  Father gave me this word to my friend and when he replied to me in a very humble way, the anointing came over me and for a day and a half I was constantly meditating on it.  Eventually I said to the Lord, “Lord, am I his Ananias, am I, his Cornelius?”  That evening I asked Father for scripture.  And would you not know it, He gave me Matthew 26.  I did not know what was written in Matthew 26 and when I opened up my Bible to it, it was about Mary anointing Yeshua.  And then, my friend said she cannot believe I was so arrogant, but I said, “Lord, I need another confirmation. I want to know if this is exactly what You mean.”  I opened my Bible in no particular place and it opened at Luke 7 where Mary was anointing Yeshua’s head, body and feet again.  A double confirmation, saying, “Yes, you are his Ananias, you are his Cornelius.”  Actually, for him and his wife because they are one.  I am praying for them. 

Why am I telling you this?  I do not want to leave out prayer and intercession and just call it a life poured forth.  I want to bring the understanding that it also includes prayer.  The Lord God needs us to understand that prayer in itself requires a death.  We can pray generalized prayers and pray the basics, but there is a prayer of travail.  We know of Yeshua praying in Gethsemane and he was in travail, sweating blood.  You pray and in the Spirit you come to such an intensity that the Holy Spirit and something is birthed out of that prayer.  It is a breakthrough and a birthing that takes place.  There is always a death that takes place, before there is life.  Resurrection life comes out of death, not when something is still alive.  It produces forth life.  The Bride within herself is also a person of prayer and intercession.  There is no such thing as a ministry of intercession.  The Body by extension is called unto priesthood, which means that we are all called unto intercession.  There is not a calling for intercession.  Yes, the Lord God might draw you specifically to a greater dedication to it, but we are all called to intercession.  More specifically, we are all called to intercessory life of giving yourself. 

In this week, whilst playing outside with my German Shephard, my mother came to me and said that she listened for the first time to one of my videos.  She started crying so much and I could see that she is really touched.  She said that she cannot believe that the Lord God has done such a work in me.  She cannot believe that the Pietra she knows all her life, that He has done such a work and showing me the things that He is showing me.  So touched, and has not stopped watching the videos and reading.  She is sending it to everybody else.  All I could do is hold her and cry with her, because I know the type of person I was.  I know the grey hair I have given her.  I used to think, going out as a teenager, very rebellious and would think, “Yup, she’s praying for me.  She’s praying for me.”  And I would not enjoy myself, because I knew she was praying for me.  I said to her, “Mom, whatever fruit comes out of all these videos and my blog, you have a part in it.  All the tears that you cried all the praying, they are seeds that you sowed in my life.  And this is the fruit of thereof.  And your life that you have set apart, what you have done for all these years, praying for me, are seeds sown into people’s hearts.  The Lord knows when those seeds will germinate and come up.”  I was thinking of Psalm 126 that says, “Those who sow with tears will come with sheaves of joy in the morning.”  It was tears of joy that my mom and I cried after all these years.  It was such a blessing.  

Now I'm saying this, because a few years ago, I used to go to my aunt every now and then when I needed a break. Just to take a break from the very difficult season that I was going through and I was unable to cope with it at that stage.  At this particular time Father has taught me how to deal with my circumstances and how to endure. I went there specifically to seek his face. I was setting myself apart to be with Him and as I was on my own, I have not seen people for a long time for years and it was a very lonely journey. I was sitting there in the room one night, fasting, on my knees and I started crying saying to the Lord God, “Lord, I am as Hannah and I want my children. You are my husband and you have given seed in my life, but I want to know where is my inheritance? Where are my children that I want to give you?  I want to give You my children.”  I was crying out to Him and in fact I was actually frustrated.  “I know this is how it works. You marry me, You love me and we bring forth children. Spiritual children. Where are my children?” The next morning, I spoke to my aunt about something else, drinking coffee. Out of the blue, she looked at me and she said to me, “Pietra, I do not know why I am saying this, but I want to tell you.  It is like you are highly pregnant in the spirit.” Well, that was it for me and I just bawled my eyes out.  Since then, I have been asking Father for not a few children, but I want thousands of children.  He confirmed it in many ways, even to the extent that outside my kitchen window, I have a plant and it is called, “mother of thousands”.  I had to laugh at His humour when He gave me that plant. 

Intercession, this life and prayers poured out to Him, this oil or ointment poured out unto Him, the head and His body, is in order to bring forth those children unto Him.  The souls, those that are still asleep and are dead in their sins. 

I received a short dream the other day as well.  A short dream and also a very beautiful dream.  I dreamed that a woman came to me and asked me, “Do you have any cherries?”  I happen to love cherries and happen to have cherries in my freezer.  I love them frozen.  I said, “Yes, I do have cherries”.  She showed me a jar and it was filled with honey and cherries, saying, “I need these cherries to preserve them in this honey.”  And I ate some of it.  That was the end of the dream.  The next morning, I was wondering, “Is Father telling me that I must still give Him something that I am still preserving, like the cherries I am putting away in the freezer?”  And I thought, “No, I have given Him all.  I have given Him everything.”  I opened a book that is called, “Behold His Love” by Basilea Schlink.  The book is about meditating on the passion of Christ.  She wrote there that when Yeshua was on the cross, they thought that He has forsaken His most cherished treasure.  When I read those words, I knew what He was getting at.  And He said to me in that moment, “What is your most cherished possession?”  I thought of the cherries and said, “Lord, the children you have given me in the spirit, they are my most cherished possessions.”  A woman in my dreams usually means the Holy Spirit.  I have always had the connection of honey with regards to wisdom and revelation.  There is a scripture for that.  But as Father was speaking to me through this devotional, I knew that, that honey meant His love.  Just like we have read now in Song of Solomon, speaking of the honey on the lips.  He was saying to me, “I want to preserve you and My children in My love.”  Honey is like a preservative and have so many amazing qualities.  He wants to preserve His children in His love.  He said to me later and I thought, “What must I do with this information?”  It is nice, but what does He want me to do with it?  He said to me, “You are my cherished possession”, leading me to Ephesians 5.  It is in the Amplified version and it talks about the relationship between Yeshua and His Bride, where Paul talks about the husband and the wife. 


 29 For no one ever hated his own body, but [instead] he nourishes and protects and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, 30 because we are members (parts) of His body. 31 For this reason a man shall leave his father and his mother and shall be joined [and be faithfully devoted] to his wife, and the two shall become [e]one flesh32 This mystery [of two becoming one] is great; but I am speaking with reference to [the relationship of] Christ and the church. 33 However, each man among you [without exception] is to love his wife as his very own self [with behavior worthy of respect and esteem, always seeking the best for her with an attitude of lovingkindness], and the wife [must see to it] that she respects and delights in her husband [that she notices him and prefers him and treats him with loving concern, treasuring him, honoring him, and holding him dear].

We are His cherries and He wants to preserve us in His love.  We are His cherished possessions.  He is asking us to pour forth our life and even, if need be, by death. It is a life that can only be preserved in love.  Isaiah talks about Yeshua that will inherit the fruit of His travail in Isaiah 53.  When Mary anointed Him, Yeshua said that she anointed Him for His burial.  You can imagine with Aaron and his sons when they were anointed with oil, how amazing they must have smelt.   The same with Yeshua and how amazing he must have smelt after Mary poured everything over Him and how the body smells to Him.  When Yeshua was beaten, when the thorns came into His skull, where that oil was poured forth on Him, can you imagine the smell that came forth?  On His back and His hands and feet, the smell of suffering. Can you imagine what it resembles?  Yeshua said to Father, “Father in the volume of the book it is written of me.  Behold I delight to do thy will.  Thou have prepared a body for me.  I delight to do thy will.” We are that body.  We are the feet, we are the hands and we by our lives and extension the way we suffer and lay our lives down, is a sweet-smelling savour unto His nose.  It is the ointment with which we continually anoint, even now, as our High Priest before the throne of God before the mercy seat; He is dripping with the oil and with the fragrance of the lives of the saints.  He is now clothed as the High Priest dripping with the oil of the lives of those who died. 

I was thinking of Paul and of the different prayers that he prays in the word of God.  His life was a sacrifice.  In 2 Corinthians 12 he talks about the different suffering that he went through, the beatings, being shipwrecked and how he also could write Ephesians 3. He prays for the Saints that they would have this revelation of the love of God. Considering the most important chapter in the word of God, 1 Corinthians 13, that Paul wrote, the chapter of love, it stands to reason that foundational to all his suffering was the revelation of the love of God. Let's read in Ephesians 3 how he prays for the Saints a prayer that we should also pray.



14 For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,

15 Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,

16 That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;

17 That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,

18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;

19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.


Wow! What a scripture and Paul must have had a revelation of the love of God. He must have had a revelation to such an extent that his whole life was poured out in love to the One who poured out his life on him in love.  Paul's suffering, the way he lived his life, is a beautiful fragrance unto the Lord and even unto us.  That is why Paul could write the last part in Romans 8, because he had such an amazing revelation. Not exclusively only for him, but for us. Because remember, Paul is a continuation of the Resurrection life of God.  Remember when Christ died on the cross for us, Paul is a personification of that Resurrection body and foundational to the Resurrection life is the love of God.  It sustains us.  It sustains all things.   In Romans 8, he says who shall separate us from the love of Christ?


35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Now, I made a statement in a previous devotional where I said, “Because we are in the Son, we are loved as the Son. One of the first things Father said to me when I gave my life to the Lord, I was 14 years old, were the words,” You will find my love. I will show you the colours of My love.”  I did not understand what it meant at that stage.  I just knew that He was going to reveal to me His love.  Then years after that, He said, “You only see in monotone now, but you will see in colour.   He used YouTube videos where colour blind people received these special spectacles where they could see colour.  Father kept on speaking to me and saying to me that I will see in colour.  The reason why He chose spectacles is because He was saying, “I am going to show you by you seeing it differently. Not by experience, but by revelation.  We all want to experience His love.  Who would not?  But the way He does is to reveal it to us by revelation.  He has to open our eyes.  Paul talks about the veil of our understanding that has to be lifted.  The veil is before our face and has to be lifted and we need to see the love of God.  He is going to reveal His love to us in colour.  Father told me the other day, “You know what you have?  You have the love of the Father.”  Think of the love of a father.  We are presently praying for little Daniel who has a heart problem and the doctors have given up.  We are trusting Father for a miraculous healing.  Think of the love of little Daniel’s father and what he is willing to do for that child.  How much more our Father and as Paul writes, “If He then gave us His Son, how much more would He not give us all other things?”  Love originated from Him, He is love.  Then He told me that I have the love of the Bridegroom. That is a jealous love.  A love that will go over every mountain, down every valley.  It is a love that will give His life for the Bride.  It is fiercely jealous.  Then He said, that I have the love of a mother.  He was speaking of the Holy Spirit, who comforts us.  He has always been there for me.  He showers me with love and guides, and teaches me.  He said to me, “You have the love of your best friend.”  There is no better friend than Him.  I can laugh with Him.  He tells jokes.  He has given us everything that pertains to love to tell us how much He loves us.  He wants to open our eyes to see it and we need to see it.  He has already given it and when we see it, it is then that we are in that place to go and tell others. He wants to preserve His cherries in that love. 

We know the word of God says that faith worketh by love.  This is written in Galatians 5: 6.  When we have an understanding of His love, like Paul, that faith is then generated out of that love.  What I mean by that is when you have an understanding of the Father’s love, the Bridegroom’s love, the Holy Spirit love, when our eyes are open to that, then there is no fear in love.  You believe all that He says.  You do not doubt it .  There is such a trust in that love.  There is such a communion in that love.  There is no doubt and that is why Paul could say, “I am persuaded…”  It was not cute words or poetic words.  He was saying, “I want you to understand that I am persuaded that nothing can separate us from this love.  When I think of Gethsemane, I think of Yeshua who was crying to the Father, sweating blood.  In that moment, He was there as the Son of Man crying out.  He was not there as the Son of God only, but as a man knowing what was awaiting Him.  He has a man that would have seen crucifixions over and over, done by the Romans, and knew the extent that it was going to be for Him.  He knew His hour has come.  He was a man, frail and weak, crying out to His Father with whom He was in communion day in and day out.  His Father to whom He cried out with tears and supplication and prayers.  Strong crying to save Him as He fought against sin.  That Father He was crying out to.  That Father that was with Him all along.  He fell back in that moment in order to endure on the Father’s love.  He said, “Father, not My will, but Your will be done. I will pour out My life to You.  I will pour out everything that I have, because you have done it for me.  You love Me.  I am persuaded that death will not separate me from You.  You will resurrect Me.  He trusted His the Father.  In 1 John 4 we read…


1 JOHN 4

16 And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.

17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.

18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

Father wants to preserve us in this love and He wants to open our eyes to see it.  We must desire it.  There has never been a time more important now to receive a revelation of His love.  Never a time more important to understand and embrace His love.  When everything is taken from us, those workers that will be sent out, what will cause you to endure?  Not bravery, because you will be weak.  Everything will be taken.  Not faith that you somehow conjured up, but His love.  And it is not just a love poured out in you, but it is a love that you have learned to trust.  A love revealed to you.

I want to read from Basilia Schlink's booklet.  The meditations in this book are about the passion of Christ and there is a particular meditation that I read this morning.  I pray it blesses you.


The Rejected Sacrifice…

Lamentations 1: 12 – Is it nothing to you, all you who pass by?  Look and see if there is any sorrow like my sorrow which was brought upon me, which the Lord inflicted on the day of his fierce anger.


Death is darkness, loneliness, separation.  It is the end of all things here on earth.   For Jesus death meant separation from His people.  He had come amongst them from another world and had spent thirty-three years with them.  What was this parting like?  His chosen people shed no tears for Him.  No one, except those closest to Him, felt the least regret that this most precious Guest from another world was being parted from them by death.  On the contrary, His parting was accomplished by scornful voices shouting, “Help Yourself!”  These were His chosen people’s final words to Him.

In such a manner the Son of God passed from His life amongst men.  It must have been a dark night for His soul.  He had poured out His love like a stream upon His children.  In the hour of death, the soul is most sensitive.  It seeks for a word, a token of love.  It hungers for love in this hour.  But Jesus was answered with hatred – hatred that put Him to death.  Yet Jesus’ love could not be stilled, for it is stronger than the hatred of hell.  Hell was forced to discover that the power of love is invincible.  Love could be hated, ridiculed, slandered and scorned.  Love could be sentenced to death and made to bear a heavy cross.  Love was assaulted by all these enemies, but it was stronger than all of them.  Jesus’ love took them captive.  The more they beat Him, the more glorious and victorious was the radiance of His love.  Hell was made to discover that in the hour that love is put to death, it rises again triumphantly to life.  For love is true life, divine life.  It can never be killed, either in Jesus, its Head, or in His members.

Who can understand this mystery?  Jesus is eternal Love.  He will always live, for He is the life of all.  Yet He was despised, mocked, tortured and put to death.  But in dying, love will always rise again.  Truly in the very manner of dying, love gains such power that sinners break down at the foot of the cross.  They are conquered by crucified Love, and so become messengers of love.

Lord Jesus,

On the cross You became the true image of love, all inclusive love.  Love embraces enemies as well as friends.  Love is stronger than death and hell.  In death, love proved its great power.

You have redeemed me to perfect love and to nothing less that this.  So, in view of Your cross, I will dedicate myself to You, O eternal Love.  I will dedicate myself to love with an all-embracing love.  I will love my neighbours and strangers, my enemies as well as my friends, the members of my own church and those of other denominations.  I will dedicate myself to a love that excludes no one – a love that never ceases.  I know that You will give me this love, the love that flows from Your heart.”


God’s perfume is called “Suffering” and the fragrance thereof is love.  That is what is poured forth when His roses are bruised and broken.  The fragrance through that suffering is love.  I believe that the incense before the mercy seat is that perfume, is the suffering of the saints that come up before Him.   The workers, those that will be sent out during this time, during the tribulation, they will be bruised.  Their bodies are the bodies that are prepared for His Son, to do the will of the Father.  They are the feet and the hands.  They will be bruised, broken and some will die.  Their lives will be poured out, but it will be a sweet fragrance in His nostrils.  It will come forth before the mercy seat of God.  I believe that the lives that will be poured forth in suffering by these workers, and even those that will die, will be the resurrection life that will resurrect those who are still asleep in their sins.  The sleeping Church and those still dead in their sins.  Those who have not committed their lives, who have just talked but not walked the talk. The cross is always the testimony of God’s love and His wrath. The cross is personified by us laying our lives down, just like Yeshua was the personification of the love of God.  It is a suffering love for us.  It will be the greatest need and is the greatest need for us now.  Many of us desire power and want Him to fill us with the Holy Spirit.  He promised us that He will.  But what I want more than His power, and am asking for, is His love.  I want His love more than His power.  The Word says that love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things.  Love never fails.   The time that we are going to go in, we will need His love to endure all things.  When He drew my attention to love that never fails, He was saying, “Pietra, in everything that comes on your way, remember, love never fails.”  When somebody attacks you, choose in that moment to love them.  Love them in that moment.  All resistance crumbles.  I know, I have tried it.  Love never fails.  You may not see the result immediately, but He promises us that His love never fails.  His love is that which will cause us to endure.  It will cause us to have faith, because faith worketh by love.  He upholds all things by His love.  This is why He is saying that He wants to preserve us in His love.  Especially for the time to come.

Father told me a joke the other day that had me laughing.  My husband bought me perfume.  Whilst I was reading my blog, the Richard Wurmbrand quote of the roses or flowers being crushed in the prison camps, speaking of Darlene Diebler Rose, and all the other “roses”, being about shoes as well; out of the blue, He tells me, “The devil wears Prada”.  I am like, “What!”  Okay, so this must mean something.  Now, I am trying to find out what the word “prada” means.  It does not mean anything, except that it is someone’s surname.  The brand called Prada.  Looking it up on Wikipedia, I saw that on their website they have a quote, “From Prada to Nada”.  This means from luxury to nothing.  When He said to me that the devil wears “Prada”, He was saying to me that the devil went from luxury to nothing.  He gets “nada”!  He will get no inheritance.  He had such an amazing inheritance, but because of the fall, he will get no inheritance, he will get “nada”.  To further confirm this, I saw the perfume my husband bought me, is Prada and the fragrance is “rose”.  God is so faithful. 

In Matthew 26 where Mary anoints Yeshua, it talks about how she anointed His head and speaking to the Pharisees later, Yeshua mentions that she anointed His body too.  I want to say to you that maybe you are going through a very difficult time.  This is the preparation for us, whether in your marriage, your children or financial circumstances, or sickness, whatever it may be, we come to Him and minister to Him, but He wants us to also anoint His body. Not just His head.  He wants us to love those that we struggle with, because love never fails.  When we do, it is such a sweet ointment to Him.  When we do, we are His priests.  Let’s read from Revelation 8.



1And when he had opened the seventh seal, there was silence in heaven about the space of half an hour.

And I saw the seven angels which stood before God; and to them were given seven trumpets.

And another angel came and stood at the altar, having a golden censer; and there was given unto him much incense, that he should offer it with the prayers of all saints upon the golden altar which was before the throne.

And the smoke of the incense, which came with the prayers of the saints, ascended up before God out of the angel's hand.

And the angel took the censer, and filled it with fire of the altar, and cast it into the earth: and there were voices, and thunderings, and lightnings, and an earthquake.


This incense is the lives of the martyrs poured out.  It was given up with the prayers and the fire is God’s judgement that comes with the trumpets.  Those workers, who will lay their lives down, put their necks on the line for the Kingdom during the Seals judgment, their lives poured forth, will come up before His throne and He will see it.  And there will be fire on it and its fragrance will come up.  And He will tip the bowl of incense and the trumpets will sound and He will pour out His judgment and wrath over those who dared touch His anointed ones.  Those who dared to touch His children.  He is going to pour it out on this earth.  Every martyr’s life will be avenged.  This is why He says in Romans 12, “Leave room for vengeance, for vengeance belongs to the Lord.”. 

Here is the Word that the Lord gave me.  It is a personal word for now, but also a word for the time to come.




My child, this season will require of you to trust Me inextricably without boundaries.  More than ever to be as a child.  To not doubt, but always believe.  Do not concern yourself with this world, but as I have said, “Look unto Me”.  Stay focused.  Stay committed to the way I have chosen for you.  You may not understand it, and this is good.  For I do not desire for you to understand, but to trust.



I have said that I will guide you with My eye.  Not with My mouth, not with reasoning, but with My eye.  Though you may not understand, you may know this.  I love you.  I know you love Me.  Never doubt these two facts.   For as I have said, “Love is the fulfilment of the law”.  Draw near to Me.  Stay near to Me. Not by doing, but by a disposition of love.  For love conquers all. Love endures all.  Hopes, bears and believes all.


So come, do not fear.  I am always with you.  There will be times when you feel that you are no longer able to endure, but love, as I said, endures all.  Nothing more is required but love.  Not your love, but Mine.  I will pour out My love into your heart at the right time.  Will it be as you expect? No. For you cannot put me in a box.


Faith has no limits, neither does love.  So come, come in the assurance that I will never leave you and remain in the posture of hope, faith and love, of which the greatest is love. 


Hope does not disappoint. 

Faith has no boundaries and love endures forever. 


I am your reward.  Not a crown, not souls, not anything else.  I Am.  Have I not said that I am able to do exceedingly above all that you could ask or think?  Know then that I am your all in all.   That I fill all and so I will fill you.  This is your reward.  I am your reward.


I love you My child, I love you.