I am somewhat reluctant to give today's post, because truthfully, if it was up to me, I would not post it. There is no upbeat sense of anticipation with Father's blessings in it, nor does it have the romantic bridal tune of "your Bridegroom is coming" as the backdrop. It is about God's judgment. Something that I of late have been experiencing and it has brought me to the point that my own words are starting to depress me. So my attitude was more or less of, "Should I really drag everybody else into where I am at?" But I have had so many different confirmations that at this point it would just be downright disobedient of me to do othewise. "So let the chips fall where they may". I have to trust Him to touch that one soul that needs to hear this. That has gone through the wilderness and are standing in their own personal Jordan, just as I am right now. Or, in time coming, for those who by God's grace will be brought here. And as I said before, we are all at different phases in our growth. One person's Jordan is another person's wilderness. At the heart of this post is the wisdom of God's dealings that is completely different than ours. We cannot put Him in a box, because, well frankly, He just won't fit. And so my prayer is that when you listen or read this post, you will think of God's dealings with man in history, and how this correlates with how His dealings have been with you. And just exactly where is He going with you in all His dealings? There is a great chance that many will look upon this post almost "too late" for where we find ourselves presently in the spiritual timeframe of things, but His work is never done, until the last second we hear that trumpet call. And so it behoofs us to take note, to have teachable hearts and be faithful to the end with Him in all His dealings with us.
I'm starting this post with a word He gave me in August 2020 that will form the backdrop. I opened my journal and it "sprang" out to me, arresting my heart. This word from Father I received about a day or two after I saw a very quick flash vision. The first thing I saw the most beautiful brown eye. The brown was almost copper and was in a way transparent...difficult to describe. Big lashes and perfectly defined. The next moment I saw this reptilian eye, with the slit in the middle. I still drew them side to side in my journal. So let's start with the Word.
WORD RECEIVED - August 2020
Hearing and seeing are linked. You cannot see, because you do not hear. And you do not hear, because you cannot see.
The Pharisees could not hear and receive My sayings, becaue they thought they are not blind. They said that they can see, and therefore could not receive My words.
Pride blinds and pride is the enemy of true discernment. Pride is the true mote of the eye.
The eye is not single, not truly devoted to me, but to self. For it glorifies self and protects self. Therefore, blind to your own faults and not to those of others. Seeing very well the faults of others, but blind to its own. Boasting in what they can see, there true blindness is with themselves.
One has to discern first inward, before you can see without.
AS A MAN IS, SO HE JUDGES.
Do not be blind to your own sin, but acknowledge them to me and I will lift you up.
Matthew 6: 21 - 23
Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
The light of the body is the eye. If thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.
But if thine eye be evil, the whole body shall be full of darkness.
If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness.
This word has some very pertinent statements that can stand on their own. The one I would like to focus on is - AS A MAN IS, SO HE JUDGES. It is interesting to note that the post is about God's judgment on man and it starts with man who judges from out of who he is. To judge is another word to discern whether something is "right" or "wrong". And depending on your disposition and personal "filters" as I call them, it will influence you in your discernment and or judging, even if you are doctrinally correct. Remember, we are told to guard our hearts for out of it flows the issues of life. So at the heart of judging or discernment, is the heart. And this is exactly where His focus is with regard to a single or evil eye, as we have just read.
As you know I am in a fast. This fast is for the purpose to be in sackcloth and ashes, so that He may lift up the bridal veil and exchange it for sackcloth, as per my post "Lazarus", quoting Isaiah 47. This is a process and not a one-time only thing. Once He shows you, you do not go on as normal, but rather everything changes. And what He is showing me is who and what I really am. What lies in the depth of man's heart, my heart. Well, I have seen the enemy, and it is "I". He is showing me the depths of man's depravity without Him and that without Him we are nothing but beasts.
David says in Psalm73 the following:
This has been my reality thus far. I have come to where David was, where he sees that even though repentance is of utmost importance, the very essence of sin is still very much beating in his heart. He is aware that his sin is covered, and yet still there. Always fighting the "beast" within as we read in Romans 7, that which I do not want to do, I find myself doing and that which I want to do, I do not. He goes on to mention the two laws within us, that of the sin nature and His nature. Another word for this sin nature is flesh or in essence "self". Which is what makes us the enemies of God that has been reconciled to God.
Romans 5: 10
10 For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life.
So why is He showing me this if I then am reconciled to Him by the death of His Son? In a nutshell, I asked for it. We should be very careful of what we ask Him. However, I very much went into my Jordan willingly, knowing full well that it would mean total death. That His aim is that "beast" residing in my heart, thinking that he can declare himself as God in God's holy temple. This "beast" wishes to dethrone my Lord and therefore he must die, and I have given Father permission.
David says further:
God works from the inside out. We know that the Kingdom of God is near, and even within our hearts. And in this Kingdom of our heart is an enemy. One who is determined to not leave. He is willing to stay even in the folds of our righteous garments, just as long as he does not have to leave. Because leaving, would mean full control and he just cannot allow that. That would mean no limitations to what Christ would do through this temple. And so the way of Father is to show me this "beast". And that he has always been there in enmity with the Spirit within me. This kingdom within us is not a palpable one that we can touch and feel, but rather it deals with our senses and thoughts as strongholds and prisons are built within our being. And even Paul cried out...
Romans 8: 23 - 25